Thoughts Can Kill

How can I...?

When I'm about to start trusting you

You throw everything away

And when I eventually forgive you

You give me the same betray.

How am I suppose to put up with you

If breaking me its the only thing you do

How am I suppose to live with the same lie

When it is always trying to make me die

The answer is to give up on you

And leave you behind

Not caring about what will happen

- I shouldn't be so kind -

Now listen! We all agree

That you're too useless for me

You should probably leave

I don't care how -  in red, blue or white  -

You should give up I'm not gonna fight

But before you go, let me tell them this:

That sick bastard who tortures me

Is actually my dear self -surprise?-

I hope you now understand

Why I want so desperately to die

How nice!

Being in a cage that you set for yourself

Cutting your skin to feel free

Peace is what you desperately seek

So you Pray to God

But he refuses to listen again

And now what? Well then....

It's about time to open the door and fly

But first be careful! Don't you dare break and cry

-You are a big girl right?

- Yeah...Except from night

When the sensitive kid I hid

Comes to the light,

Shows itself with crying eyes as red as blood

-She is just a bit mad

Mad at you who couldn't keep your promise

And because of that she never had a chance to feel love

Your innocent little self knows what you've become

You make her watch you dealing with the black

That little innocent girl had met every monster of yours

And has watched every bloody drop

She watches how you use the sharp tools against your skin

And how you mix the sweet red blood with the salt tears

You can't stand it anymore

Tonight you'll break the wall

How can you do it? It's simply as that :

Take your favorite gun,

Load it however you can

Don't worry, no-one will take notice

Now do you know how to use it?

Of course you do :

Take that and use it against you!