Resume, delete, begin again | an olicity au

Chapter 18

He was, I don't know, 6'3, slightly taller than me. But he was lanky, no muscle, and wasn't intimidating at all. But he was shirtless, a towel wrapped around his waist, his hair wet. He had brown hair and blue eyes, a large nose and a friendly smile. But I wasn't about to be friendly towards him.

I assumed the worst, that All my nightmares had come true. My heart drops. She had moved on, without me. She wasn't gonna wait for me to come to my senses. I immediately regret coming here, and I hear him say,
"Hi, who are you?" and I snap out of my thoughts.

"Oliver, umm, I work with Felicity." I say, my voice low, embarrassed.

"Oh so you're Oliver. I've heard a lot about you" he says smirking. I'm confused by his answer and frown.

"I'm Frank." He says, as if I'm supposed to understand what that implies. I raise an eyebrow, still confused.

"Felicity's brother. Frank. I thought she would have told you about me. I'm a journalist, so I was in town for a couple days, and I stopped by. Heard my sister was sick, wanted to help her out." He explains. I sigh out in relief

Thank god. I think

"What did you say?" He asks chuckling.

Shit. I said that out loud, I think, this time the words only traveling in my brain.

"Wait did you think me and her were..." He says laughing at the thought. "Nah, I bat for the other team, if you know what I mean."

"Ohh..yeah. Sorry that's awkward." I smile. "Nice to meet you frank." I stay sticking out my hand to shake his.

"Nice to meet you Oliver." He says. "I've heard a lot of good things about you from Lis. Clearly your body, is gorgeous. Felicity said you were hot..but wow!! Any way, I digress, I also heard that you hurt her, and I'm a forgiving person. People make mistakes." He says, interrupted by Felicity footsteps being heard as she walks down the Stairs. She has her hair in a messy bun, and is still in pajamas without any make up on. She looks beautiful as ever though.

"Oliver!" She says, her voice muffled because of her stuffy nose and throat, walking towards the door.

"Hi." I say waving to her. Frank leans in, and whispers into my ear quickly before Felicity reaches us.

"I know you hurt her, and like I said I forgive people because we all make mistakes. But hurt her again and I will end you and they will never find your body." Then he looks up and causally says "Hi Lis, glad you're feeling better."

"Yeah, thanks." She says, appearing behind him in the door frame. I try to hide a laugh at Frank's threat, as the kid hasn't got any muscle and looks like one punch would end him.

"Hi Oliver. I see you've met my lovely younger brother" she says punching him jokingly on the shoulder. He laughs and says,

"Ow sis! Come in." Moving away from the door frame allowing me into felicity's house. It seems the same as always. Piles all over the place and a disorganized mess. But it was like her, quirky.

"Can I talk to Felicity privately?" I ask frank, as he was still right next to me.

"Of course" he says pleasantly. "Remember what I told you." He says as he leaves, going up the stairs into one of the many rooms on the second floor. I plop myself on the couch like a child, and pat the space beside me, indicating her to sit.

"What do you want Oliver?" She asks.

"I want to tell you the truth." I say, bluntly.

"And what the hell would that be, because you have confused the hell out of me these past few days and the truth would be nice for a change." She says coldly.

"Umm..so I went Sara's grave today." I say sadly and I see her features change.

"I'm so sorry" she says, her voice soft now. she puts her hand on mine and says,

"I'm sorry that I've been so rude about Sara. You deserve to mourn Oliver. I'm sorry I tried to take away that process away from you." She says, her voice sweet. She hasn't used that tone with me in a while.

"You have nothing to be sorry for Felicity. I was the horrible one. And just...I don't want to make you feel like you're competing with a memory because that's unfair for you...its just I can't forget Sara, and for me the only way to honor her memory is, to not date right now. It's only been three months." I say sadly.

"I understand, but I already knew that. What's the truth, that you said you would tell me."

"The truth is...talking to sara, knowing you, made me realize I can begin again. I really want to live again, not just survive. And...I got a job opportunity...its on an island. There was a earthquake a few months ago, and the case I just had, made sure that all sorts of new equipment would be sent there. Money, funds and all sorts of stuff to rebuild. And they asked me to come, and join them, since I did win the case. I just really want to be able to help other people and I think this will help me start over again." I say bravely, letting the truth out.
I see her face drop, she clearly thought I was going to say something else. So I continue. "I leave in a month, to an island called Lian Yu, but I needed you to know I felt about you before I left. If you didn't know, I know I would regret not telling you.

"And whatwould that be?"

"In two weeks Felicity, you changed my outlook on my life. I thought I was just going to die wishing it were me instead of Sara in the ground and I'd never be happy again. In two weeks somehow you changed everything for me. And I didn't want to have feelings towards you, but I can't I control how I feel. Felicity Smoak, I...I love you." I say softly, looking straight into her beautiful blue eyes.

"What?" She says, her eyes wide.

"I think you heard me fine." I say, looking down feeling very vulnerable. I didn't expect her to say to back, it was just her time to know.

"Oliver...I uhh...I love you too" She says, and I look up.

"You do?" I ask.

"I do." She whispers, a tear running behind her rectangular glasses.

I'm looking at her in a way I don't think I've ever looked at someone. She loves me and I love her. And before I know it, my lips are on hers. This kiss deepens easily, and I bring her close to me. I hear her brother walk down the stairs, and I feel his stare, before he runs back up the stairs giggling.

She pulls aways, and my heart drops again, she regrets kissing me, I think.

"Oliver, I'm sick" she laughs.

"It's worth it." I say kissing her. And for this moment I forget that I am moving, and I forget all that's wrong in this cruel world. And for tonight I am hers and she is mine. I don't know what will happen afterward, whether we can remain friends, or not. How can you remin just friends with the girl you love? But I can only be sure of one thing. I love her, and she loves me, and this is the beauty of love.