Somewhere In Neverland

Seventeen.

Alex's P.O.V.

After telling Jack everything we decided that the day before we left for our first tour, we would go visit my brother. Even Arabella. That made me nervous. I've never told a girl, or anyone except for the guys about my brother. And I didn't have to tell them, we all practically lived together at that time. I miss my brother a lot, but I feel like meeting Arie was him forgiving me, giving me a second chance. I was not going to lose her. Ever, no matter what I had to do to keep her, I was going to do it.

Me and Jack stayed outside for a while longer and just talked about him and his new love interest, Olivia. I was surprised, I didn't know that he liked someone. Then again, my head has been elsewhere. Tom's day was right around the corner and I was happy I would be on tour when it came around, but it still bummed me out. Goddammit, Tommy. I want you to be here to see this moment with me. And with Max, Jack, Rian, Zack. You could have met Arie! Jesus, it was a stupid fight, Tom. I was lost in thought when Jack threw a rock at my head and I looked up, falling out of my thoughts.

"Alex, no one blames you. We never have and we never will. We love you, you're our brother." He said and walked over and kissed me on the cheek.

"You're so gay, Barakat," I grinned. He smiled and winked at me, "only ever for you baby!" I groaned and we walked back inside, laughing. I seriously could not ask for a better friend than Jack.

Day before they leave for warped tour...

Arie's P.O.V.

Luckily, the hospital had let me go as long as I was monitored at all times. Of course, the guys never left me alone for a second and though it got annoying, I loved it because I knew they cared. Especially Alex. I never thought someone could love me like he does, and like I love him. I never thought I was capable of love. I knew the death of his brother was coming around soon because he had told me. We were supposed to go visit his grave today. I was sitting in our room, making sure that I had everything packed and ready to go for tomorrow when I heard someone walk in behind me.

"Hello there, princess!" I heard Alex say, but he sounded elsewhere. I turned and faced him, smiling, "hello, Peter Pan." He smiled and walked over, kissing my forehead. "Ready to go?" he asked hesitantly. "I'm ready, and I love you." I said, wrapping my fingers around his. He smiled and we walked downstairs. Rian and Zack were running around the house making sure everything was ready and piled by the front door so we could just pack and leave while Jack was just sitting there, staring at them and laughing.

"What's going on-" I started to say, but was knocked over by a very fast moving Zack. "Shit! Arie! Get out of the way!" He said, running back again and I stuck my leg out, tripping him. "WHAT THE FUCK?!" He screamed, rubbing his knee. Jack started laughing hysterically and I looked at him confused. "Rian wins!" He said, smiling brightly. I laughed and saw Zack reluctantly handing Rian a five dollar bill.

"Alright shitheads, let's go." Alex said, unamused by the situation and already heading out towards the car. I frowned and watched him go, not knowing what to do. "Arie, don't worry," Jack said, lifting me up on my feet, "he just takes this time of year really hard...he doesn't mean to be an ass." I smiled slightly, and just walked out the door. Alex was sitting in the passenger seat with his head leaning back and his eyes closed. I slid silently into the back and everyone else entered the car loudly. I looked out the window, ignoring the conversation going on around me. I was lost in my own little world until I felt someone squeezing my hand that was resting on my knee. I looked up to see Alex, squeezing my hand and pleading with his eyes for me not to be mad at him. I smiled and kissed his hand, and he turned back around, a slight smile on his lips.

"Get a room, damn!" Jack said and everyone laughed, including Alex. "Jealous, Jacky?" Alex winked and Jack rolled his eyes. Finally we pulled up to the gates of the cemetery and I froze. "Well, here goes nothing," Alex mumbled and everyone looked down a bit as Jack drove to where Tom rested. I stayed frozen, not moving and I couldn't tell if I was breathing.

"Arie, you okay?" I heard Zack say, but it was faint and far away. I was being sucked into my memories. My darkest one. The one of my father. When I found him, dead. Not the police.

Years earlier...

I couldn't find my dad. I wanted him. Needed him. Mom needs him. I was walking all over town, the air was cold and it started raining. I couldn't find him, I needed to. We were all losing touch with reality. We all just needed to be happy again. I wanted to apologize, for what I have done to him and mom. I didn't mean to. I still remember, vividly. "Jesus christ Trenton! She's taking up all our finances! She has problems with depression at age ten! What the hell are we going to do?! I told you it was a mistake keeping her!" "That's our daughter! We love her no matter what! We'll find a way to make ends meet!" And he walked out on that. I was walking for hours, looking for my father and finally I saw his car! He was sitting in it, he was wiping his eyes. Why is he crying? I saw him lift his hand and heard a loud bang. I slowly walked towards the car where I just saw him slouch over. I opened the door, which he left unlocked. "Daddy?" Nothing. "Daddy? W-wake u-up..." Nothing. No movement. I pushed his torso to wake him up and his body leaned up against the chair and I saw blood. A lot of blood. I ran away. I ran and ended up a town over, in a hospital.

Present...

"Arie?!" I heard Jack scream and the car halted to a stop. I hadn't realized that I was breathing heavy. My heart was pumping fast, my hand were sweaty, I couldn't get a breath out without a pain shooting up to my heart. "I-I'm s-sor-ry" I choked out and ran out of the car. Towards my dad's grave. Not looking back, not hearing if they were calling out to me or coming after me. I collapsed at my dad's grave. Not being able to breath and tears streaming down my face. I started shaking and the pain was getting worse.

"Breathe, babygirl. Breathe." I heard a voice behind me say, calmly and felt an arm wrap around my shoulder. I was sat up against a body with arms wrapped around me and someone humming a tune to a song that I have not heard before.

"I'm here, Wendy." I heard Alex's soft voice say into my ear.