Somewhere In Neverland

Eighteen.

Alex's P.O.V.

I knew what was happening as soon as my head snapped towards Arabella. She was panicking and I knew exactly why. After I had read her suicide note, I looked up where her dad was buried. It was here, in Hospice Cemetery. Only a path away from Tommy. She ran out of the car and I ran after her, calling her name but she wouldn't stop. When she reached what I assumed to be her dad's grave, I saw her struggling. Struggling like I am. How I do. When memories come to my head, when I can't stop thinking about what happened, what I saw.

I slowly walked towards her and wrapped her up, calming her down a lot faster than I expected. "I'm here, Wendy." I whispered into her ear and when she looked at me, with tears running down her pale face, I knew I loved her, more than anything. I forgot everything for a moment, and all I saw was her. Being with her. She had calmed down some and looked up at me, "I'm s-sorry. C-can we see T-Tom?" she stuttered and by then everyone else had caught up to us. When they read the grave, they said nothing and I knew Jack knew what had happened. After all, he's taken care of me when I went through my attacks.

I smiled, feeling better about today than before, "after you, m'lady." I said and she smiled standing up slowly. I grabbed her hand and walked towards Tom's grave. My breath quickened as we approached his grave, and Arabella tightened her grip on my hand, relaxing me a little. Jack was standing dead next to me on the other side, glancing at me quickly. I smiled at him a little and he nodded and walked ahead towards my brother's grave. I saw Jack, Zack and Rian all in a little half circle around his grave, heads bowed and they were all tearing a little. Tommy had been close to all of us, he wasn't just my older brother, he was everyone's older brother. He helped us all, with something. Our biggest fan, was him. I joined their circle, not realizing that Arie had let go of my hand. We all threw our arms around one another, and smiled.

There was my brother, my biggest inspiration, still smiling back at me and proud of me. He was happy, and for that, it made all of us happy.

"We love you, Tommy. Keep partying up there kiddo." Rian said and we all giggled a little, remembering the crazy parties Tom used to throw. "Save some girls for me to dude!" Jack said and we all laughed a little harder. "Make sure they have good alcohol up there, you never could handle cheap shit." Zack said and we all laughed, louder. "I love you, Tom. Mom and dad miss you, we miss you. But we're still going strong, for you." I said and with that, we made our leave.

"Arie, you coming?" I asked, as we were walking back towards the car. She was standing there, just staring. "I will, in a minute." She replied softly. I shrugged and walked slowly back towards the car. "What's Arie doing?" Jack asked.

"I don't know." I replied.

Arabella's P.O.V.

I watched as the boys walked back to Jack's car and piled in. I saw Jack say something and then Alex shrug, his eyes still on me. I took a deep breath and turned around, walking towards Alex's brothers grave. I read the words, In loving memory of Thomas E. Gaskarth Loving brother and son. I felt sadness wash over me, knowing how much this hurts Alex. I sighed and kneeled down.

"Hello, Tom," I started, not caring if I looked crazy for talking to a headstone. "My name is Arabella Jaymeson. I'm sorry we couldn't meet while you were alive, the way all the boys just talked about you, you seemed like a really fun guy. I'm dating Alex, and let me tell you, you have an amazing little brother. I love him, Tom. And he misses you, a hell of lot even if he doesn't show it. They all miss you, a lot. And love you. I promise to take care of him, no matter the cost. Sleep well." I stood up and turned, making sure the boys were still in the car. They were. My phone vibrated and I took it out to look at who texted me.