United/ sequel to Departed ZM

Do You Know

Silence.
Once again everything was drop dead silent. I don't know why my life had to be so complicated? Why can't i just live a normal life? Why does it have to be full of so many twists and turns? Why?

" It-it was you?" he asked wide eyed with his lips parted.

" Yes. It was me Zayn."

" How are you so sure?"

" Louis told me."

" Louis told you what?"

" Zayn. Eversince that dance happened, i have been looking for the guy. Because he fixed me. He made me feel better. Since the moment i left the party, I've been searching for him and then one day my search was over when i found out that it was you. But i did not contact you. I did not have the courage to come up to you." I said looking down in my lap.

" You don't know how much I love you and how much I have waited for you." he said taking my hand in between his.

" Zayn. you don't love me. It was just the dissatisfaction of not knowing my identity Zayn. It wasn't love. It was mere attraction."

" How do you know? I know I love you."

" No Zayn. You don't. You can't and you never will."

" Why are you saying that Zara?"

" Because you don't know what love is."

"I know what it is." he snappd at me.

"Zayn love doesn't happen overnight. It takes time to realise it. You cannot just love me over a dance."

" How does it work then? Care to explain?"

I closed my eys for a brief second and opened them up to spill everything honestly to him this time.

" Zayn. You never knew. You never knew that I loved you. You always thought that I had an obsessive crush on you. But you know what? I loved you. I always did and I still do. All these years of my life I never stopped loving you. Its not a feeling Zayn. Its a part of your life. Just one look of them makes your day. You yearn for them. You die for them Zayn. These past 6 years I have only waited for you. I have only died for you. I lied to you Zayn. All the time you were gone, life did not treat me well. It treated me like hell. Each day was a misery Zayn. Each and every second of each and everyday I missed you. I cried for you. I have had sleepless nights and foodless days waiting for you. I have had panic attacks. I have tried to end myself for you Zayn. Do you really think that these cuts on my wrists are from some accident.? No Zayn. I tried to hurt myself. But you will never know. You will never know the extent I would go for you. You won't." i said heaving for breath.

Tears were streaming fown my eyes. My nose was red from all the crying and my eyes were puffy. I was over whelmed and a horrible mess.

He sat there in front of me looking me deep in the eye and brought his body near me on the bed and cupped my face in his hands.

He wipped my tears with the soft pad of his thumbs and the next thing I knew, his lips were on mine.

The familiar feeling of his lips on mine sparked my body. The taste of his lips was intruding. They moved in pefect sync with mine in a soft and slow lip lock. He gently caresed my lower lip with his tongue and parted my lips effortlessly. His tongue roamed my mouth and I stood upon my knees to match his height as my arms snaked around his neck, gripping onto the collar of his shirt. His hands moved down my sides and into my shirt. I slowly straddled him never breaking the kiss and he held me by my waist.

The kiss as if it was the last we were gonna have.It was as if our lives depended upon it.

Within a swift motion, he turned me and laid me down on the bed with himself hovering over me. My hands roamed his back while he  continued kissing me.