Teen Years

Being a Teen pt.1

Well my mom and my sister keep harassing me and never leave
me alone and thats all I really want. But now everyday when I get home from school they are always calling me out on my behavior or something and it doesn't take an idiot to realize my sister is my moms favorite. My mom is like her slave and my sister sometimes disrespects her and im not like that. I do almost everything I can to make sure everybody is happy and its like they have the nerve to call me selfish. So right now my sister called me out on being on my phone too much and my mom never leaves me alone about it. So my mom said that she is gonna take my phone away at 10 every night. I didn't do good one test and they want to hold everything against me. I never told anyone but the reason I stay up late on my phone is because thats when everybody leaves me alone. I never told anybody this but when I am on the internet I AM HAPPY. and I meet cool people who dont judge me like most people do. They understand my problems and I meet my idols who tell me things my parents never tell me. Like dreams come true. I can honestly say that if youtube did not exist I would cut and harm myself. you dont know how many times I wanted to until I just watched yt vids until I was genuinely happy. I am honestly so locked inside rn. my dad does everything he can to help me and understand me but honestly if I tell him he is gonna full force scream at them and it will all be my fault. I am so mad bc they are taking away something from me that makes me happy. They dont show me any respect and I just am so upset and mad and scared and so lost. I just want to be alone and away from my family for a while and that sounds bad but its the truth.