My Life Full of Pain

Chapter 6

Chapter 6

If I wasn't selfish, my parents wouldn't have died. It seemed like those people wanted me, not just use me as a hostage, why else would they kill my parents. If I stayed outside, my parents wouldn't have died the people would have only taken me. They would still be alive and I would have somehow gotten to them. But now I'll never get them back.... It was all for a stupid fucking BEAR!! How could I have let my parents die because of a bear?!? I didn't realize how stupid I had been until this moment.  

Kids are so naive... Not having a care in the world until a tragedy happens such as death... That's why I stay aware of my surroundings, of every living human, it's why I'm always cold hearted and focused, you can't rely on anyone, they'll hurt you when the time comes, guaranteed.  

Putting my past aside, I need to deal with the situation at hand. I don't want to look weak after all.  

"Why the fuck did you just punch me?" I ask him outraged. 

"You know it's not nice to swear... Or ignore people..." He said while smirking, which somehow didn't annoy me as much as it should have.  

I ignore the other guys in the room and focus on Kile. I stare into his eyes while he stares into mine. We stay silent observing each other. 

His mind is still blank. It's like seeing food through a glass window but not being able to smell or taste the food, causing a longing feeling left in you. I push further with my mind and then the glass becomes foggy and I am knocked out his head. I wonder if he realizes what he's doing or if he even knows what I'm doing?

There are so many questions I have about my past, my life right now. Nothing makes sense. I'm certain of nothing except for surviving. 

"You know Karin..." He starts off but then stops talking as if thinking what to say. "You still have my clothes," he whispers into my ear. I tremble as his breath touches my neck. I hear him snap his fingers behind his back. I soon feel empty inside. It takes me a couple seconds to realize the other guys left... With a snap of Kile's fucking finger!! How could he just do that, be so superior to these other vampires? Wait, Kile's not a vampire... So how can he be Damien's brother? There's more to Kile then I thought... 

He leans down into my neck and kisses me softly. Heat explodes on my skin and I melt into the kiss. This feels so right.. But it shouldn't... My body is feeling something completely different than what my mind is telling me. He keeps kissing my neck softly. Why wasn't he always this gentle? I lean my head back against the wall and moan out. Kile lifts up from my neck and tilts my head down, forcing me to look at him. 

"You like that, don't you?" He asks staring at me. My only response was staring back at him and breathing heavily. 

He leans in to kiss me and I let him. My lips feel warm against his. I part my lips to let his tongue in and he doesn't hesitate. I merge my tongue with his, moving as one. He breaks away from the kiss leaving me breathless. Why am I feeling like this towards him?  

He picks me up off the floor and carries me over to the couch and lays me down. He takes off the clothes I'm wearing. My heart is beating so fast in my chest that I don't know what to do. He lies on top of me but makes sure to keep his weight off me. He leans down and kisses me more fiercely than before. I wrap my arms around his neck pulling him closer to me. I kiss him back and soon pull away, breathless.  

"Kile..." I whispered. "Why did you turn on me? Why did you go and work for Jeb?" I desperately ask while still breathing heavy. He strokes my cheek while looking at me, oddly... 

"It's simple. The only reason is so I could get to you. After I saved you when you were six, I took you back to where I lived with Jeb. You ran away soon after and Jeb was so focused on you it was infuriating. I wanted Jeb’s love but more importantly, yours. I felt I'd never see you again. Until one day I saw Jeb had taken you and so I followed you. You see I never had real parents except for Jeb. When Jeb abandoned me, Damien’s parents took me in and adopted me. They were better parents than Jeb ever was." He said sounding very bitter towards Jeb but very kind towards Damien’s parents, as if it was the best thing that happened to him.