Thoughts of a Quiet Girl

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Everyone wants to call and check up,

have a conversation,

see if I'm available to hang out.

When they know, for a fact, I can't.

But the minute I want to call and check up,

have a conversation,

see if anyone is available to hang out.

They suddenly forget that they had plans.

They forget that I exist.

You are the one constant in my life,

and even then,

there are times.

When you're busy,

asleep,

have things to do, want to do.

And then I'm alone.

Entirely.

I don't tell you that though.

Because, you won't believe that I don't blame you.

You won't believe that you still are doing everything you can for me.

I just want you to know, that, yes I miss you when you're gone.

But that's not the problem.

You being gone,is not the problem.

The problem is, is that every time you are gone.

There is never anyone else to be around until you're back.

Because they can't talk right now.

They once again forget my existence.

And then I'm alone.

Entirely.