Thoughts of a Quiet Girl

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I would like to start this off

with apologizing...

I'm sorry I can't seem to control

how I feel

and when I feel like that.

I know I can be hurtful

and stressful

and annoying

and difficult.

A truly long list,

but you see

it's way more frustrating

for me than it is for you

Because the whole thing is like

an out of body experience.

I'm angry for no reason,

and something really stupid brought me down.

I sit there in my head

wondering...

Why am I acting like this?

Nothing happened

and yet I don't seem to listen to myself

when I say to stop.

It's like it's not really me.

So I just sit and watch.

Waiting for the random mood to pass

trying to figure out

what's wrong and how to fix it

To have some control

Lastly,

I want to end this off

by saying thank you

for sticking with me

while I lose all control...on how I feel