Thoughts of a Quiet Girl

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I think you've failed to understand

that you're the only one that speaks to me

Unless I'm within those four walls, that I hate the most,

and sometimes not even then

I don't think you've come to terms with the fact

that seeing you and hearing from you,

have become the highlights of my days

And as much as I love you,

I wish I didn't have to say that

Purely because it would mean

maybe

I'm not so unwanted and worthless

But you are all I have,

and so I use you to my advantage

My moments with you keep me above water

just long enough until you're with me again

But when one of those moments is missed

it's not missing it itself that sends me spiralling downward

But that little bit of hurt adds to all the other,

and it sends me underwater