Don't go, Jayden.

Chapter 11

Jayden's P.O.V

Yesterday, there's a news they found me. That explains why I keep appear and disappear somehow, as if I'm fading. I haven't told Felicia, because even I myself isn't ready to go.I want to stay longer, but you can never escape death after all. There's no second chance.

As I walk to Felicia's room, I saw her standing near her window. She looked outside with a sad look on her face. I walked to her and asked "Hey you okay?"

She turned around and face me, but I stood so near that she jumped a bit with a surprised face and slowly walks backwards. 

"I'm fine Jayd, no worries." She forced a smile. 

I knew there's something wrong. I could see it in her eyes, even though I noticed she avoids eye contacting with me. I wish I could hold her right now and hug her tightly, and tell her she'll be alright. I wish I could hold her face so that she wouldn't look away when I stare in to her eyes. If only... If only I could touch her. I wanted to hug her so badly before I go.

"Jayden?" Felicia waved her hand to my face.

I stuttered and asked her "What's wrong?"

"I've been calling your name just now but you seem out of space!" She giggles. 

I tried to hide my embarrassment as I looked away but Felicia kept teasing about how red my face is right now. We both laughed after the sorrow thoughts we had that night. Felicia, you're a tease that made me fall for you more.

Me and Felicia went on the roof and lay there, we looked at the sky full of stars. I've never felt this way but it gives me chills and heartbeats, and I couldn't stop smiling but tries to hide it anyway. When we both talked about random things. But I felt dizzy all of sudden. It felt so...

Felicia's P.O.V

Me and Jayden had late night talks side by side as he lays beside me on roof. My heart keeps beating so loud that I couldn't stop smiling, it's like I'm overreacting to happiness. Jayden, how could he looked so  amazing under the moonlight? His eyes sparkles and his smile still melts me, is it wrong if I want to hug him so badly right now? 

We talked about random things, even simple talks but it's unforgettable. I can never forget the words that came out of his mouth as his voice haunts me every second. But those haunts that kept me all night and I think it was the only thing that never really bothered me to sleep, but like a lullaby that sends me to sleep with a smile and heartbeats.

Is it crazy if I actually... confess? Like right now. 

What if he thinks I'm crazy, or weird, or dumb or or or! Urgh just do it! It's now or never.

"Hey Jayd." I whipered to him. He looked at me and waits for me to say more.

I looked at the sky to avoid eye contact as I get more nervous when I stare in to his eyes. 

"I've always admire you. You've made me smile more than other people do, and my heartbeats every time you're with me even from far and close. Even though we couldn't be together for real, I just wanna tell you that I..."

As I faced to Jayden's, he's not there. 

I quickly stood up and look everywhere to see where he is. He was there with me few minutes and all of sudden gone! I got panicked that I tripped and fell off the roof.

My legs were in pain, so painful I could barely breath properly. I cried silently as tears roll down my cheeks, holding the pain but I still think of Jayden.

"J-Jayden...?"

My voice cracks as I said his name. He would always appear during the times I'm in pain. When I call out his name, he would answer me. When I'm lost, he'll search for me. When I cry, he'll be there for me, but this time he didn't.That's how I noticed he really disappeared beside me.