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*sorry I updated so late at night but I just go done with my homework and chores




**1week later***
(Ja'Kaylon)

I am officially depressed. I now have to take antidepressants because I think I'm going crazy.

I am so serious. When I don't take my meds I hear voices and just wanna kill myself. The doctor said I have bipolar disorder and schizophrenia. So I take medicine everyday but to day I'm gonna make it all end.

I took my shaving razor and took the blades out. Then I ran a hot bubble bath. I made sure to do this after Cardea made his usual visit. He left about 10 seconds ago.

I got in the tub, then I opened my cut womb from Jamal and grabbed a razor. My side was already bleeding so I prayed that God will forgive me for what I am about to do but I can't take it anymore. Then I sliced both my wrist. "Good bye" I said and closed my eyes letting the blood run.

(Cardea)

I had just left out of Ja'Kaylon's hotel room about 15seconds ago.

When I got to my car I couldn't find my keys and phone. I hurried and ran inside the building after checking my pockets.

When I got to Jay's room I knocked only to get no answer. After a while I was beating like the police and shouting her name.

I went to the front to get someone to open her door but no one was there, I called for someone but no one came. I ran to her room again. I had no choice but to bust through the door.

I was calling her name but no one answered. I went in her room to find her naked in a tub of red water with her eyes closed.

I hurried and found my phone calling the police. When they got there I had her in a sheet rapped up. They took her and put her in the ambulance.

I found my keys and followed behind them. This is the second time I had to do this.

When we got there they immediately rushed her to the back. I sat in the waiting room waiting for about 50minutes till a doctor came out.

"OK sir, so she is up and awake but she won't talk" she said

"OK well can I see her" she lead me to her room.

When I got there I heard sobbing. Jay was in a fatal position crying her heart out. I walked over to her. "Talk to me Jay" I said making her look at me

She was still crying but managed to talk "that was my baby, I didn't get the joys of a mother, like her first words or her first steps. I didn't get to spoil her till she couldn't ask for anything else. I didn't get to hear her first cry, or teach her things she should know about this crazy world."

She had a tight grip in my shirt and wouldn't let go "you don't hear voices when you wake up before you take your meds. You don't put up with abuse. You didn't lose a child. You don't have a disease." She was letting it all out. She punched my chest a few times but she needs someone right now and I want to be the person that is there for her.

After about an hour she was asleep with the help of an IV and medication.

Wow was all I could think. She has a really fucked up life. Y'all just don't know how bad I feel. I have never seen a worst life in my 26years.

I just wish there was something I could do about it or could I....

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What do y'all think
*Jay has a bad life
*what does Cardea have up his sleeve

~Queen Victoria

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