Changing Avery

Chapter Fourteen - Doubt

I don’t remember a time when I wasn’t confused, which I think is sad. When I think back to a month ago, back to when I was in my house, in my little town, living life according to my parents, I know I wasn’t confused except I can’t remember what that felt like. I remember feeling caged in and stuck; suffocating and waiting for things to change, but it seemed that the confusion had embedded itself into every one of my memories. I suppose it’s because I seem to have two pasts; the one I knew and the one that everyone else seemed to know. Maybe that’s why I’m so confused.

I was starting to question my account of everything that had happened leading up to my seventeenth birthday. Everyone else seemed to know my life better than I did and it caught me off guard in the smallest of moments. Like when Parker makes us all coffee in the morning and knows exactly how I take mine even though I don’t remember ever telling him or when Hudson shows me a new song and knows I will love it, which I do every time, because he knows my exact taste in music. Even with Asher, I get these glimpses, just from things he says and does; I know he knows me better then he lets on.

It was just all very strange, so strange that I was starting to think that DeDe wasn’t just a figment of my imagination. It scared me to think that her being real was even possible, because if she was real, then something big was coming. She said it herself. I wanted to tell Colton so bad about her, about whatever was coming, but how exactly do you tell someone about a girl that comes and visits you in your dreams? You don’t.

‘Ah Avery’ someone said from the door.

‘Come in’ I replied, surprising myself at how breathless I sounded. Turning towards the door I saw Parker and Hudson making their way towards me.

‘How’s my little munchkin?’ Parker asked patting my head.

‘Err I hate when people call me that!’

‘I know!’ he smiled.

‘Of course you do’ I muttered to myself.

‘What was that?’

‘Nothing. What can I do for you boys?’

‘Oh nothing just thought we would see how you were since we have been pretty busy for the last couple of weeks. Haven’t really got to spend much time with you’ Hudson replied.

‘I’m okay’ I sighed.

‘You don’t sound fine. Are you and Colton okay?’ Parker asked, a concern look planting itself on his face.

‘Oh no!’ I quickly replied ‘we’re great it’s just … I don’t know’

‘What is it?’ Hudson asked. How was I supposed to answer their question truthfully, I couldn’t exactly tell them everything that had been happening.

‘Really’ I started ‘it’s nothing, I have just been rather stuck in my head without you boys around, but now that you’re here you can distract me’

This seemed to be enough to dull their concern. Leaning over me they gave each other the weirdest look and started counting backwards from three. Before I could even question what they were doing they had reached one and with that Hudson had picked me up and thrown me over his shoulder.

‘Guys! What the hell!’ I screamed.

‘Just go with it Ave’ Parker said following behind us as Hudson had started carrying me towards the door of our apartment. Twisting my head around, I saw Colton and Asher sitting on the couch watching television.

‘You guys not going to do anything about this?’ I questioned, crossing my arms as best I could upside down.

‘Nah you’ll be right’ Colton laughed, not even looking away from the television.