puzzle pieces [ x.m.h ]

CHAPTER 25

minghao pov

tears roll down my cheeks uncontrollably. she doesnt remember. she doesnt remember me. she doesnt remember the memories we both created. she doesnt remember her feelings for me. i feel a hand rub my back. i jerk back at the sudden touch. jun sighs. he pratically drags me back to the dorm and tucks me to bed like im 5. he sits at the corner of my bed and doesnt say anything. what can he say? "its going to be ok" ? that would just be lies. and jun's not one to lie so he just keeps his mouth shut. the other members stand at the door as i sob pathetically. my heart hurts so much i bend to my side. its like a thousand arrows piercing my heart. and its much worse than being stabbed in the heart because its the small things that inflict the most pain. like how she'll never come up and hug me randomly. like how her eyes will never light up at the sight of me. the thought of losing her now does seem real.

i have lost my Winter.

i feel tears run down my neck that are not my own. ive been pulled up and drawn into a masisve group hug. jun sniffles. and that small act just hurts me even more. im causing pain to the ones i love most. not contacting winter and leaving her to defend herself against her demons ; i had hurt her. now the members are crying for me ; im hurting them.

after a loong while , after the members are gone and im left to deal with the pain , i ask myself ; why does this happen . and i get an answer. an answer i realise that has been around for the past two years but i never had wanted to acknowledge it.

i have to let go .

a/n: im sorry this is so short :"(((