puzzle pieces [ x.m.h ]

CHAPTER 10

"YA WAKE UP LET"S GO SHOPPINGGGGG~~~" I woke up with a start. I opened my eyes and saw 12 faces peering at me. Minghao and the rest of Seventeen had already gone to one of their fanmeeting venues. "Want to go shopping or nah?" "I'm coming wait give me 5 more minutes," I scrambled up and changed before heading out with the chattery group.

We entered a convienice store and the girls started to fight over what ice cream was the best. Taking this chance, I sneaked to one of the back rows and found what I was desperate for: sleeping pills and a new penknife. The old one was getting rusty with all the blood on it. I paid for it, slipped it into my bag and walked back to where the girls were at. "Where di you go?" Gina asked me. She'ss kill me if she knew what I purchased. "Errr... I was kinda bored so I was just walking around. Hey wanna go to the clothes shop?" "SURE!!!" The rest of the girls, who accidently heard our conversation, screamed. Gina's face lit up and we all walked out of the store, none of them aware of the monsters that have a knife at my throat...

That night, I slipped into the bathroom at the dead of the night. Everyone was asleep; noone knew what I was doing. I slit my wrist a couple of times, opening up some old scars. The anguish, pain, low self-esteem and self-hate just washed over me like that of the huge waves in a stormy sea. I was thrown everywhere, like a toy, in that vast, depresing dark, very dark ocean. My hands shoke as the torrents of self-hate acid rain poured onto me and I swallowed 5 tablets of sleeping pills. My vision became blurry and I slumped on the floor. The last thing I remebered was the flow of warm, crimson blood slowly dripping down my white, pale wrist. And then, the world became dark.