Perrentes- Mpreg

Chapter 32

Mike POV- 

I held Tony tightly in my arms while he rested his head on my shoulder, I could tell he was completely exhausted, all the energy was drained out of him after the events that had unfolded today. We'd hardly spoken to each other, just spent the last few hours trying to comfort one another as best we could. Of course I was keeping a brave face on and was the shoulder for Tony to cry on. If I suddenly broke down in front of him, I'd just end up making the situation 10x worse.. 

I just felt empty, like a part of me had been stolen away and now there's just nothing left. I don't want to cry, yell or do anything at all for that matter.. My little boy was gone and there was nothing I could do to bring him back.. My heart was broken into a million pieces and I had no motivation to fix it.. 

I'll never get to hold my little boy.. I'll never know how bright his smile would have been or if he would have picked drums over a guitar... Nothing like that... 

 It was my fault that he's gone.. 

"M-Mike.. Are you okay..?" Tony whispered as he brushed some hair from my face. At a time like this, he's asking if I'm alright.. It should be the other way around.

"Don't you worry about me" I shrugged my shoulders before placing my hand over his. "I need you to just get better then when you get out of here, I'll take you down to the beach again just like when we were on our first date. Okay?" 

He flashed a small smile then moved into my lap, wrapping his arms around me, "M-Mike.. I love you so much.. I don't know what I would do without you.." he laughed quietly and wiped away some tears that had trailed down his cheeks.

"Well you never have to be without me, Tony. You know that I'll always be here for you one way or another and I'll help you get through this. We'll be okay, I promise" I leaned in and kissed his forehead gently. 

To be honest I'd probably be passed out drunk in a gutter right now if I didn't have Tony, he's made such a positive impact in my life and no matter what, whenever I see him, my heart just races like crazy. He means everything in the world and more to me.

I just wish things hadn't gone this way.. I wanted our baby boy and I knew this would be hard to get over.. but I've got to stay strong for Tony.. No matter how badly I'm hurting right now..

I guess when Tony's ready we could always try for another baby, but I probably shouldn't think too far ahead like that. I just can't believe that he's really gone and I'll never get the chance to meet him.. It's horrible.. and I bet Tony is just as upset as I am.. 

Tony rested his head back on my chest and sighed sadly as he placed a hand on his stomach, "He was kicking a lot this morning.. I can't believe he's gone.." 

I brushed the hair from Tony's face as I could see his eyes filling with tears again, "He's always going to be with us and if he was here right now, I bet he'd be a little ray of sunshine just like you are" 

I could see Tony smiling through the tears before he slowly glanced up at me, "I wish he was here though.. He would have had the best father in the whole world..~" 

I pulled him closer and pressed my lips against his as more tears ran down his face, "It'll be okay, We'll get through this.. One day at a time.." 

|| So that's the end of this book! 

*** Should I make a sequel ??? ***