feelings.

they.

I feel like I'm crazy. You told me I'm not but I still think I am,  its because of them. You say they aren't real but I can hear them. They're in my head and they scream at me. They tell me I'm ugly and fat. They make me feel insecure. You tell me I'm pretty and I hear them tell me that you're lying. That it's not true. That no one as fucked up as me can be beautiful. That people with scars aren't beautiful. I have a million of them bringing me down. I can barely understand them they all speak so loudly and it kills me. I don't know how to feel. I try to play it off like i'm okay but I know you can tell im not. I try to stay strong but they break me, they always do. Now i cant even talk to you without being full of anxiety. they say that youre going to realize how ugly and worthless i am and it scares me because I dont want to lose you. You tell me that it's not true that you won't leave me and i really do try to believe you but its just so hard. I dont know what to do anymore, they have taken over my life. I cant do anything without hearing them. they make me question everything and I get scared. it scares me so much. i get so so scared that something say is going to end up being true. i believe them i always do. i dont want what they say to be  true. it cant be tue. no no no  no no please dont let the voices to be true. now im crying what if they are true? please don't leave me. please. please dont i need you. i cant be alone i need someone to stay with me im anxiety attack. breathe iim breathe breathe its okay quianna just calm down everythin will be okay dont cry stoo crying jut ignore them stop lostening dont listen you know better they are true theur are lying to you youew bwtwe than hat jst calm doen you will ne okay calm calm cl, breathe and think happy things dont listen to them just drown them out they arent real they dont mean it i just dont know what if theyre right i dont want them to be right pkease dont i cant stop ajbkfbrfrrofr pLEASE GET THEM OUT I WANT THEM OUT I NEED TEM TO STOP THEYRE YELLNG AT ME TELL THEM TO STP[ YELLING I CANT  okay im going to go calm down now becvuse im realyy scared and u dont know what o do byye oly