With Love,

Chapter 4: Change My Mind

This road trip feels like forever.

We've only been in the truck for 3 hours.

I'm tired and hungry as hell.

"Can we stop somewhere to eat? I'm starving and I need to pee!"

"Earan, are you okay?"

"Dylan, I just said I'm hungry and I have to pee. So no, totally not okay right now."

I was grumpy and didn't want to take anyone's shit right now.

I wish Sarah hadn't reminded me of William.

I kept thinking about how he was there one minute and gone in the next.

Dylan asked the driver to make a quick stop at the near by gas station.

We got ourselves burgers, fries and shakes.

I've been craving those for so long.

I tried to be happy after my bitch scene from the truck.

We chilled, having a nice mid night meal.

"Hey guys, I'm just gonna go to the bathroom real quick."

I stood from the table, making way into the restroom.

I noticed I had about 14 missed calls from Josh, so I decided to call back.

"It's 2:55am and you'be been calling. What's up?"

"Have you already left? Dylan said you guys were leaving?"

"Yeah. Since when you you give shit?"

"Since a year ago."

"Whatever. You're probably drunk, go back to sleep and say that again tomorrow when you wake up."

I hung up the phone.

Josh was always so nice to me, but I'm such a douche bag to him.

I exit, going back to Dylan and Sarah.

"Holy shit you just missed out on the loudest burp ever done by Sarah!

My babe is a master."

Sarah and Dylan were so cute, but sometimes, they disgust me.

They're a strong couple, it's been 10 months they've been together.

I envy their relationship, they're best friends and lovers.. exactly what I long for,

exactly what I almost had,

exactly what I can have, but don't want.

Dylan's been trying to convince me to get together with Josh, but I just don't want him.

He's handsome, popular, smart and rich.

Also a jerk, idiotic, and has a big ego sometimes.

I not sure, I guess I could always consider him.

What was I thinking?

I cleared my mind.

"Hey Dylan.. I need to ask you something."

I tried, but couldn't seem to quit thinking about it.

Dylan grew a big smile.

"Yeah, sure. About what? Josh!?"

"Yeah.."

"Oh my god, you don't really like him, do you?" Sarah was getting worried.

"I don't know. The feelings are 50/50.