"Karla why are you here? What do you wish to fix in you and Tiana's relationship?" Jamie asked my mother sparingly
"I'm here because Tiana doesnt respect me. She never did and she punishes me and i want to make our relationship better" my mother said watching me.
"Karla, you've been saying the same thing since day 1. Im not with you wasting my time. You're not going deep to the root of the problem of how this all came about. Dig deep and knowledge Tiana doesnt know regarding her childhood that made you a "bad" mother,and if you're not, how do you expect to better the relationship" Jamie asked tapping her foot on the floor. My mother dropped her head and tears started flowing down her face.
"I didnt want Tiana, in fact I didnt want kids at all. I always had abortions just so happen that Tiana stuck and i couldnt do anything about it. I didnt want anymore kids explaining the abortions after that. I separated myself because i thought maybe if i acted like less of a mother, then I'll be less of one. I didnt want anything to do with her so i distanced myself but that didnt give her the right to disrespect me" my mother sobbed out. I sat on the couch staring her, with my cheeks burning.
"Ok good, i know it hurts but she had to hear it, in order for progress to be made"
"Now both of you take 20 minutes and write or type down what you would like to say to each other, either the person they are now or back then" Jamie said writing on her notepad.
I wipped out my phone and began typing.
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"Tiana go first" jamie said glancing at me with soft eyes
"This is to the person back then, Fuck you Karla, you abandon me and basically leave me for dead. I hate you and i wish you would die. You treat me like shit and i cant wait to grow up and leave you. You are selfish and only think about yourself. You are an inconsiderate bitch who doesnt deserve anything. How could you be less of a mother to me. What do i do that is so bad? Why are you never around when i need you and when there are only things i can say and only questions i can have for my mother. Everytime i turn around you're not there for me. Stop being a bad mother Karla." I read aloud with tears running down my cheeks thinking back to the pain of my childhood.
Jamie sat behind her desk taking notes on her notepad
"Karla before you read, would you like to answer any of her questions?" Jamie asked my mother looking at her. She nodded her head and i just sat there sobbing into the tissue Jamie handed me.
"This is to the now person, why do you hate me so much? I wasnt much of a mother but that doesnt mean you can disrespect me. Im still your mom and i wish you would stop distancing yourself and stop being so cruel." My mother read staring down at the book she wrote in
"Anything you'd like to answer Tiana" jamie asked me. I rolled my eyes and sighed heavily as tears still trickled down my face.
"Ok well no progress is bein made by being petty, so tonights assignment is to go home and not speak until next meeting" jamie said standing up walking to the door.
"No problem i do that now, i really dont care" i said standing up heading to the door
"If you didnt care you wouldn't be here" Jamie said patting my arm as i walked by. I mimicked her in a childish way and headed to the elevator. I noticed my mother coming out and decided against the elevator. I made my way to the stairs and walked down.
