Last First Kiss (One Direction FanFiction)

Lies

~Louis's P.O.V.~

I didn't particularly mind Julia staying, I mean, I didn't care at all. Eleanor was staying with me so it was just as fair he had his fiancé with him.

~Harry's P.O.V.~

I stared into the suitcase in which there was barely any clothes, a couple of white t-shirts, a pair of skinny jeans and a pair of converse, that was it. I noticed a screwed up piece of paper in the corner of Julia's suitcase which I just so happened to have noticed while putting away a dress in her suitcase at the time. I grabbed it and zipped up the tent, she was busy making breakfast and seeing as it was scrunched up, she probably didn't need it and was intending to chuck it back home. I opened it up to see a whole diary entry scribbled on both sides, I began to read.

Dear Diary,

I can't believe it's starting again, the self harming that is, I've just got engaged with the most amazing man on earth and I am so in love with him that it hurts me to write this. Keeping a secret that big away from Harry would be almost impossible. So he already knows but he doesn't know this secret. I've tried to hide it and nobody knows, not even Savana or Mum, I don't think I can keep it in much longer. Being anorexic is a huge secret to keep bunched up and it is practically killing me inside. All I wanted was to lose a couple of kilograms and have a gap between my thighs, I never wanted an addiction this strong. Weighing 10.2 stone felt horrible for me, everyone around me was so thin and the pressure was enormous, Harry doesn't even notice my illness, only the self harming. I'm so fat though, I weigh 7 stone and that needs to change, I need to eat less. I technically haven't eaten a thing as everything I've eaten, I've thrown up afterwards, binging and purging is so bad for me but I can't seem to help it now, it's a daily routine, just like brushing your teeth, as with the self harming. I love Harry so much that I feel I can't tell him, I don't want to bring him down as much as I am now. ANA (A/N: anorexia) is killing me and I can't stop her...

Julia xxx

~Harry's P.O.V.~

The tears seemed never ending and each one that fell, landed directly onto the paper. I felt angry but most of all scared and worried, she was starving herself? Why hadn't she told me? In a relationship like ours you're meant to tell each other everything, but would I of done the same? I decided to let it pass but she seriously needed help, I threw open the tent doors after replacing the letter back into her suitcase, and then walked over to sit on the log by Julia where she was cooking breakfast.

"French toast alright?"

"Sure babe."

I looked down to be shocked into silence, I hadn't noticed how thin her legs were. Each bone was sticking out oddly and I couldn't help but notice her arms had no muscle what-so-ever.

"Are you alright JuJu?" I said warily, hoping she wouldn't catch on to what I was saying.

"Yeah, of course I am, why wouldn't I be?"

"You seem to be getting a bit... How should I put this... Thin?"

She looked startled at what I'd said, I somehow knew she'd caught on to what I had said and she burst into tears.

"Baby, come here." I pulled her into my lap and cradled her like a baby, I couldn't imagine how she felt. And she wasn't as cozy to hold anymore but I still loved her to bits all the same.

"My life's falling to pieces Harry, everything I've had, everything I love, it's all going away before my eyes. I'm so fat but I can't stop myself."

She sobbed as I gently stroked away each tear from her face, pulling her hair out of the way so it wouldn't get wet. Julia was beautiful but was in a terrible state, I wanted to help her, I wanted to save her from anorexia but I couldn't manage such an illness like that, "When we get back to mine, we're calling a doctor okay?"

Julia shook her head defiantly and I stared at her, shaken to pieces.

"You need help."

She shook her head again but grabbed my hand all the same.

"They'll take me away, I've heard of it happening so many times, they'll take me to a special house for teens with anorexia, I'll have to live there for weeks," she could barely speak, but managed another sentence. "I'd have to live without you for months."

This time I was shocked, I'd never heard of such a thing, it filled me with regret for even bringing up the subject, but I managed to say remorsefully.

"They won't take you away, I promise."

I pulled her into a hug, kissing her forehead just as Eleanor and Louis stumbled out of their tents. Louis stared at me, as if asking for breakfast.

"Breakfast will be ready in about 5 minutes, you can wait here if you want." I spoke clearly, hiding the pain in voice,

"What's wrong with JuJu?" asked Eleanor, sitting herself down a foot away from Julia and I.

"Is her head hurting? If so I can get her an ice pack."

"No, she's just... Going through a tough time with..."

I was racking my head for ideas, I knew they'd find out someday, maybe they even already knew but I didn't want Julia thinking I told them.

"Her parents are arguing." I managed to stutter, I doubt they even believed it at all.

I placed Julia beside Eleanor, kissing her quickly before flipping the toast in the pan. Niall and Savana emerged from the tent, arms linked and hair ruffled.

"Have fun in there?" I asked sarcastically, sticking my tongue out at Niall just to watch his immature reaction.

"Yeah, lots." he laughed, making Carol giggle and me smile.

I loved to see Niall so happy with a girl, he always kept his love life such a secret from us, but now, it was in the wide open, just like all of our relationships. I served up the toast on plates, letting each couple share 4 pieces.

"Is it good?" Julia managed to ask, covering her face with a smooth curtain of hair.

"Yeah, it's heavenly." yelled Niall, his mouth was full of toast so it was probably disgusting to watch for Julia but all the other boys and Eleanor were used to it, and Savana couldn't care less.

I still can't believe she told me all those lies, I guess everyone has to do it sometime. They already have, already are or they will, everybody lies, it's a fact of life.

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BTW after this chapter I promise you that I tried my hardest to be as careful as possible as to what I'm writing and if I do hurt anyone's feelings I do not intend too!! :/ I'm sorry for what you're about to read but its also a fact of life and its better to understand it now and NOT do it, than to not understand it and DO it!! :) But if you do have anorexia or any other issues like it I'm not in any way, shape or form, trying to hurt you, or bring you down! :) Thanks for reading!! :)