Last First Kiss (One Direction FanFiction)

Rhode Farm

[Rhode Farm is a real clinic for Anorexics and I don't want to criticize any of their employees and definitely not anybody who is suffering from Anorexia and in Rhode Farm, it's serious and the last thing I want to do is hurt anyone suffering]

Yours SERIOUSLY,

Savana

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~Julia's P.O.V.~

I sat still in my bed, my arms cut to perfection, or imperfection, it was the only way to stop the pain, the depression, the not eating. They'd taken everything from me, my knife, my phone, my friends... My Harry. The nurses had heard Harry yelling at me and it was only a matter of time before they'd came in and taken him away from me, deeming him unsuitable for me to be around. I couldn't put up a fight, all I could do was weakly blow him a kiss as he was dragged out by the collar of his shirt. The nurse had taken away my knife and moved the Glucose drip away from my reach before taking me out of the hospital and into a Rhode Farm, the hospital for Anorexics and Bulimics. They sat me in a wheelchair and drove me in the back of an ambulance to the front doors.

I saw the sign at the front door and read it...

RHODE FARM:

Clinic for severe Anorexics or Bulimics

At that point I wanted to die. I wanted to be dead more than before. I tried to get up from the wheelchair but I was pinned down by a nurse who looked at me worriedly.

"This will be good for you, just wait and see." she said firmly, squeezing my hand gently.

I didn't want anybody but my friends, or Harry, to touch my hands, it didn't feel right, nothing did. It all seemed like a blur, a never ending blur. I could hear sobbing as soon as the door was opened and it was then that I jumped out of the wheelchair, landing face down on the cold, tiled floor.

~Harry's P.O.V.~

Louis hugged me and patted my back gently, "It's okay bro. She'll be okay and out in a short matter of time. Just hang in there mate."

I tried to smile at him because he'd helped me so much, he'd drove me home from the hospital, put me to bed and got my prescription, all for me. I'd been diagnosed with severe depression and the media were all over it. They'd got photos of it all, front pages, spreads in the newspapers, Ok!, Hello and Gossip. EVERYTHING was going wrong. I'd weakly been able to text the boys and check my twitter. I'd lost 6OOO followers, they all hated me and my twitter feed was full of abuse.

~Julia's P.O.V.~

I stood on the cold scales, shivering as the lady placed a hand on my back, urging me to put up my other foot.

"Julia you've gained 0.7 pounds, your making good progress. Bye now love." she said, pushing me away with a slight squeeze of the hand, using the other hand to type with.

I weighed 57 pounds. I needed to lose weight but I couldn't, I'd just gained weight. I went into my room and changed into a loose fitted white tank top and a pair of cross print leggings. We weren't allowed to wear sleeves at the dinner table, as I'd found out when I tried to get away with wearing my parka indoors at lunch, but they'd let me off with a warning and an order to remove the coat as I was new there. I honestly hadn't expected anyone to understand, let alone be jealous of me. I'd told them about Harry and it turned out 3 of them were directioners, and my new friends. I learned that we had to chew all our food a certain amount of times, have all sleeves rolled up and at dinner, we had 25 minutes to eat it, and we had to eat it ALL. I'd cried at my first dinner time but my friend, Connie, just hugged me and told me it isn't as hard later on. Whilst managing a stupid friendly grin, I saw a girl spit a mouthful of food on the floor. The ladies rushed over and began to talk to her, it was a dull scream but it was meant in the nicest way possible, she didn't have to clean it up, the food simply got replaced and the girl had to eat what was put on her plate again. I could see her pain and I winced when I saw all the oil drizzle out of the fish, it was Friday and fish and chips was the usual. As my friends told me, this was the meal everyone dreaded due to the high calorie and fat content. Harry was on my mind all night and every kiss that we'd had, I re-lived it in my head but it wasn't right.

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I'm back!! :) I hope you all liked my mediocre chapter... :( I'm trying to do my homework so that I don't hurt anyone's feelings or write anything wrong... but I guess it's a good thing right??? Now I know, and am teaching all of you, the struggles most girls have these days and how to help make things better. Now after reading this you have the knowledge of something new! :) Thanks for reading!!

I know that this is serious stuff and I shouldn't be happy and excited but... I wanted to give shout outs to the AMAZING people who said Happy Birthday to me on my birthday!! :D You guys REALLY, TRULY made my day, or night ;), or morning, gaaahhh does it matter, any ways...

At 12:00 at night, or morning, whatever: @juliapedrin & Sarah (doesn't have a Wattpad)

During the day: My AMAZING and beautiful family, A LOT of people in Vegas... Haha, @ConnieKoenig, @AnimeDreamer44, @MikaelaP, @CATASHAM, @Lilohorse, @anmol_dhillon, @Mrsforeveryoung and to anyone else who said happy birthday although I didn't catch their birthday wish!! ;)

Thanks for tuning in for such a LONG authors note but these people truly deserve a shout out!! SO GO FOLLOW, LOVE, VOTE, WHATEVER YOU WANT TO DO TO THEM, JUST DO NOT HURT THEM... OR I WILL WILL HURT YOU... JUST KIDDING, BUT SERIOULSY... }:(