Dating the One I Hate

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Hai guys~ sorry this isn't an update but I just wanted to give you all a shout out, to show how much I care for you all! <3

I understand that some, most, any of you are battling inner demons, such as depression, bullying, etc.

I just want you to you aren't alone. As am I here for you. If you ever need to dish something out, vent, or simply just talk, please I'm willing to make a new friend. I can't stress enough how happy you all make me, so I want to return the favor.

I know it seems like I'm budding into your business but, I just want to help. I know what it's like to feel alone. Like no one cares, or everyone is against you. Like you can't tell anyone anything, because you don't want to burden them with your problems. I'm literally like that 24/7.

Now I know the most recent chapter you loved, but also were very broken. So let me get this straight to clarify some things.

I love gay people. If I didn't I wouldn't be writing gay fanfiction! XD I'm a strong and forever supporter of LGBT rights. I find them the best thing in the world. They're adorable and cute, and if you're gay, congratulations.

I don't care if your bi, pan, trans, purple, pink, yellow, gray, blue, white, an elephant, a mouse, a dog, whatever. I love you all.

You all are perfect and don't let anyone else tell you different. They're just insecure and jealous. Trust me, it might be hard to believe, I know, but it's 100% for all of you. So poo on them!

Second thing. I do not condone bullying. I hate bullying, and as a victim of it myself, I believe no person should have to be subjugated to such cruelty. I know it can be stopped but I sure hope someone eventually does something. So hang in there.

Finally with the depression. I'm not at making fun of it, as I too have this myself. I don't self harm, but I will admit I have thought about it.

If any of my lovely readers do, as much I hate the fact of you hurting so much you result to ruining your beautiful skin, I think your even more beautiful with the scars. So here's a billion of kisses for each and every one 😘

I hope this cleared the air a bit, and just know, that hurting any of you was far from my intentions.

With that being said, I thought and eye for eye. So here's some facts about myself, so you understand me better.

1. As a child I was abused.

2. As of now, back to the age of 6, I was/am bullied. Been called practically everything: ugly, stupid, dumb, fat, retarded, lesbian, wannabe, loser, bitch...etc.

3. I'm battling depression. However I smile through the pain. I care more for my friends than myself. Often feeling alone, especially when I'm there for them, but it isn't likewise. A facade of happiness, that is far from transparent is my specialty.

4. Some of my bullying was in fact physical. When I was younger, as I was boarding the bus, they'd trip me, chuck things at me, you name it.

5. I'm suicidal.

6. Due to a past of empty promises and fake people, I have major trust issues. It's hard to earn my trust.

7. I actually never share my feelings. I hate worrying other people about my problems, not that they ask anyway.

8. I find myself very self conscious, hating every little part of my being. Even with compliments, I find it hard to really believe them. Because I hate myself.

9. Going in from 8 I believe what people say about me, and care about being judged. Let me tell you, peers are the meanest.

10. My whole family hates each other so all I have is my dad, who's also suicidal and battling depression. 

That's it for now, but just know you aren't alone. I'm here with you.

So without further ado, I take my leave. Hope you look forward to the next update, and stay FANTABULOUS!

Love you! ❤️❤️