"Hey!"
I woke up to Sean and Peyton.
"Uh hi" I rubbed my eyes.
"How-how is he?" "I don't know. Honestly we don't know what happened. We are waiting for the doctor."
"Ooh" Peyton murmured as she sat down next to me, leaving Sean without a seat. "You guys know what happened huh?" I frown at what I just said. This has been bothering me, but I didn't think it was true until now.
"Uh-" Peyton got interrupted by Sean, "yep"
"Sean!!" Peyton snapped when she hit his shoulder.
Oh boy, couples.
"Wait- soo tell me. I want to know now." "Uhm, you go Sean. Your his best friend." "Ok. It started two months ago when Ryan wasn't feeling right. He went to the doctors to make sure. And he was-uhm diagnosedwithabraintumor."
It hit me like a truck. But he interrupted me when I was about to cuss them out, "it made sense because his mom and grandma and grandad died from cancer, it ran in the family. So he kept coming back and he even quit his favorite sport, basketball to have the time for x-rays and cat-scans. He spending less time with us and more time at the doctors. He didn't want to tell you because he- he- I- well.. I'm just sorry Michelle.. I don't know what to say.."
"what the fuck?!??! You didn't tell me? Why? So- shit- This is what you've all been hiding from me? I care too much about Ryan! What if by the damn time I find out he's..he..he.. ugh! You guys are so frustrating! I'm just so mad-"
I cut myself off and stormed out of the room unknowingly tears were long tearing from my eyes and streaming down my checks and falling off them.
I ran and ran I ran up the nine flights of stairs to just let out all my anger. I collapsed at the top floor, my legs stinging. I found a corner, rolled up into a ball and cried my eyes out.
I let sobs fly freely and let out all my emotions. I can't face the fact me is most likely to die.
No- my thoughts won't go there I can't do it, I can't do it and I'm not even related to him. I wonder how he feels knowing your-
I shut down my brain before it goes to where I wasn't ready for it to go.
What about his parents?
They were working from forty five minutes away.
Sean told me.
I can't think anymore.
I can't.
I fell asleep with tears on my face, there in my little ball of sadness.
