life...

chapter 26

Natalie's P.O.V.

I woke up the next morning feeling oddly confused. I never had such weird dreams my whole entire life, and I am the queen of weirdness! So this is weird. Like each one of them tried to leave little messages at the end, but they were all confusing. I want to go back to when everything was easy and simple... and most of us not so damn confusing! I want to go back to when I was a cheerleader and the worst I had to worry about was if my ponytail was on the side or not. I want to go back when, yea I had a lot of expectations, but it wasn't as damn stressful as this.

"Babe do you want something to eat?" Ryan comes into his room asking me. I totally haven't even realized that he was gone. I was so wrapped up into my thoughts, I didn't even realize he was gone.

"Sure what did you..r mom make?" I say making sure that he notices that I was emphasizing that he can't cook.

"I was actually going to cook this time, okay? She is gone with dad doing something, but I haven't made anything," his cheeks were getting pink but he was trying to play it off cool.

"What do you have? I mean what can you cook that you have that is actually edible? If there isn't anything, I would just like a blueberry muffin that I saw last night."

"Okay so a cup of chocolate milk, a blueberry muffin and a side of Ryan to go with that?" He winks.

"Everything but the side of Ryan."

He starts pouting as he walks out of the room to the kitchen. I put on one of his hoodies, run my hands through my hair and go downstairs to hear him singing something. I can't really tell what it is that he is singing ,but he is really good.

"So, don't ever think I need more

I've got the one to live for

No one else will do, and

I'm telling you

Just put your heart in my hands

Promise it won't get broken

We'll never forget this moment

It will stay brand new

'Cause I'll love you

Over and over again

Over and over again"

As I come closer I realize I know this song, it is what I call the new All of Me song by Nathan Sikes...but it's not actually All of Me it is Over and Over again. He and I danced to it one night when he and I were alone. I guess he really liked it and learned how to sing it. He is pretty close to how Nathan sings for sure though.

I started singing along with him when he finally realizes I was there, dropping a cup full of what I am just going to guess is the chocolate milk he is getting me. Or more like was. He stares at his feet at first, then at the spill, then at me with a guilty look in his eyes.

"I'm sorry," he starts cleaning up the spilt milk.

"Why be sorry when you are really good? Why be sorry when it is your house, your mess that you just made?" I bend down to help him.

"Well I was trying to be sweet, the song got stuck in my head. You scared the living hell out of me and I made a mess. I DROPPED THE BEST CUP OF CHOCOLATE MILK EVER TOO! Like I suck at anything that involves mixing two different things, but babe that was the best I have ever made."

I laugh at him before saying," When was the last time you mopped the floor? I may actually try it."

He gasps but then realizes I was joking. He grabs the back of my head and move me closer so our foreheads were touching. Then he makes it so I have a face full of chocolate milk. I hit him upside the head when I sit back up.

"Don't ever do that again! It wasn't funny! You could've really hurt me!" I stand up and storm off.

I was laying on his bed after wiping my face, when I hear him knocking," Babe? Babe? Nat? Natalie? I'm sorry. I was playing around. Please forgive me?"

I walk up and open the door only a little bit, so when he starts taking a step forward I slam the door in his face.

" See that is how I feel! Doesn't it kinda suck?" I yell through the door.

I hear laughing from the other side and when I open the door, he pulls me towards him, making me fall on top of him. He starts to tickle me and I start kicking and doing everything to get out of his grasp. It didn't work.

After awhile he finally stopped and I started to go look for movies. Couldn't find them so I ended up just grabbing a pencil and paper, put on music and started drawing. He came up and sat next to me trying to mess me up, causing me to try stabbing him with a pencil.

I have no idea why I had a dream saying I was alone when I have him.