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chapter 2...rails

Megan's P.O.V.

"So, what do you want to do? Megan! Ugh. Have you always been this scatter brain?" Natalie wondered.

"Nah. Now see that train, let's play chicken." I said with one of my daring smiles.

"No. I'm not doing that"

"Quit being a cheerleader. Wait or are you still a cheerleader?"

Natalie grabbed my hand and smiled. One of those smiles we used to give each other when we were at practices. A smile that says,"Hey I know you are unsure about this ,but let's do it anyways."

"Let's go!"

I took her up on the offer ,but truthfully I was scared. Not like the scared you get when you realize forgot your homework but the scared you get when you realize this could end badly.That's probably because it could end bad.

We got on the tracks hand in hand. Her small bony hands in my boyish hands. She had some death grip on me like she never wanted to let go, never,ever let go. Like she wanted me to stay there with her forever.

"One! Two! Three!" We screamed and jumped.

Never once did we let go. When we jumped she landed on me. Her brown hair messily laying on her shoulders. Her eyes looking right into mine. Her shy smile was making me want her so much, even though it doesn't matter since you know she was lying right on top of me.

"So, what'cha want to do?" I asked. We are both lesbians. We came out to each other but we made each other promise to not tell anybody.

"Let's go to one of the old boxcars."

We got up walked over to the boxcar I knew the most. It's the one I claimed as mine. Not knowing it was the one she claimed as hers. Whenever I'm upset I come here, I sit in the chair I guess she put or lay down on the makeshift bed I have.

She needed help getting up, so I helped her but when I pulled her up I pulled her a little close. We just stood there looking into eachothers eyes.

I've always had been told if you wanted something go for it. I've never kissed anyone and she looked so cute standing there. So I leaned in, and kissed her.

Her lips were soft. She grabbed my face like she has done it before. A million times before.

"No, we can't I'm sorry. It's wrong Megan," She said as she jumped off the boxcar.

"Please stay! I have nobody it seems like, when I said this it looked like she didn't believe me," I'm sorry for everything! Don't leave! I love you!"

"You don't love me. You just want to use me," she said in a very dark way.

"No! I've never loved anyone like I do with you. yes, I know I may only be a teenager and everything but you, you are the one who completes me."

Natalie started crying, in a way that made me feel guilty. She started shaking really odly. I started to think she was having a seizure or something.

"Nat! Nat! Are you ok?!" I screamed

"Oh, yeah I'm ok," she said like it was nothing.

"Thank god", I thought to myself. I don't know what is happening or anything. I need help. I need..