ON HOLD- <3 Darling It Will Be Okay <3 (A Johnnie Guilbert Fanfiction)

Chapter 9

*Alyx's Pov*

Its monday now and the girls and I immediately meet up with Lokae. Johnnie isn't here.

"Oh my God Alyx I'm so sorry he did that I didn't even know he was dating her until now." Lo says while giving me a hug.

"Its fine Lo. I know you would have told me. I was just stupid enough to think I was good enough for him." I say with a sad smile.

She glared at me "Don't you dare say you aren't good enough for him. And I personally think you can do wayyy better than my brother."

Then Ronnie spoke "Why don't we just leave."

We all look at her with suspicion.

"I mean why don't we just move. Start fresh. We're almost old enough anyways. We can move, get jobs and start a life. All 4 of us."

Lokae starts to stutter slightly "I-I-I I don't t-t-t-think Johnnie will l-like that."

"Who cares what he likes! I mean come on that sounds fucking awesome!" Alice says throwing her arms around me and Lo

"I could use the money I saved from making YouTube videos and with that I have enough to buy a house along with a few months rent and some food." I shrug

Lo looks shocked "How much do you have saved?"

"Well I don't buy myself much and I've had the channel for a few years so a couple million all together."

They all stare at me

"If you don't close your mouths you'll catch flies. " I say with a smirk

Alice looks behind me and glares "Guys let's ditch today"

I wish I hadn't turned to see what she was glaring at.
Behind me was Johnnie and Alex. Walking. Laughing. Holding hands. I couldn't handle it. I could feel anger and sadness start to bubble up inside of me.

The strong scent of different perfumes and colognes fill my nose and it starts to burn. Everyone starts to move slower and I clench my fists, feeling blood start to drip. Shit.

I lean over to Alice "I need to leave. Now" I growl

She grabs me by the arm and looks at Ronnie. They both understand what's going on but Lokae sits there completely and utterly confused.

Alice starts to speed walk out of the school, pulling me along with her. Both girls following from behind.

*time skip 15 minutes*

We go to Lo's house because it's closer and memories of Johnnie flood through my head.

*flashback*

A tear rolls down my cheek and he must have noticed because he immediately hugs me.

"What's wrong princess?" Johnnie says pulling away slightly. His hands cupping my cheeks. And his eyes full of worry and confusion.

I show him my phone.

Mom: You ungrateful whore. Why don't you get off that fat ass of yours and make money to help me and your father?

Dad: Slut

Dad: Stupid fucking cunt.

Aunt Berlin: You're so fucking fat. Lose some weight dipshit.

The list could go on.

He once again pulls me into a hug.

"Don't listen to them okay baby girl? You're beautiful, smart, talented, funny and much more. I don't know what I'd do without you Alyx. I...I..I love you" he says in a soft tone, wiping away the tears

I didn't believe what I was hearing, l knew Johnnie cared for me but I never thought that maybe he liked me more than just a really good friend.
"Johnnie...I..I think I love you too" I sputtered out

Admitting love was always a really difficult thing for me to do, whether it be to friends or a family member, but thats mostly because of my shitty family.

He smiles and blushes, pulling me back into a tight hug but soon releases only to grab my hand and lead me to his bed. We lay down and he pulls me into another hug. With his arms wrapped around me and my head on his chest we both fall asleep.

*flashback over*

I was furious. He lied to me. He doesn't love me. Never did. Was this all a joke to him?! Are my feelings just a joke? Who am I kidding. I'm a fucking idiot for believing that Johnnie cared about my feelings.

I feel a hand rest on my shoulder "Alyx? Are you okay?" I hear Lokae ask

I sniff the air

The sweet scent of strawberries fills my nose. It makes my mouth water.

Taste.

Just one taste.

Devour.

Must devour.

Hurt.

Maim.

Kill

I turn around and snap at her not realizing what I'm doing. I can't control this. This isn't me.

I come to. I have control again.

I back away.

My anger being replaced with fear.

I could injure the ones I care about. If Lo hadn't moved away I would've bit her.

"L-Lo I'm so s-sorry" I say turning away, knowing I'm still half wolf; My tears blurring my vision

"Its okay but what happened? Why won't you look at me?" Worry and sadness drip from her voice.

"Because I'm keeping a secret from you. I'll tell you but you can't tell anyone. And please don't be afraid." My voice cracks

"Okay I promise."

I turn around

"I'm a ware wolf" I look at the reflection in her eyes and see my glowing red ones staring back at me.

"Woah....THAT'S FUCKING AWESOME HOLY CAS" she screams

I fall on the couch with a sigh "thank God you aren't scared of me."

The other girls walk in and sit down. All staring at me

"You really need to learn how to control the shifting" Ronnie laughs

We all laugh and watch movies all day/night.

*A\N
This took forever to write but hope you like it!