Regret

Finally Accepted

Alex's Pov

"Big brother" I here Isabella say. "Yeah Bella". I motion her to come over.

 She grabs her picture she was coloring, hides her picture behind her back and sits beside me on the couch.  "Do you like Sammie?" I stiffen.

Do I like Sammie. I shake me head. I shouldn't lie to my self anymore.

Its been about two days since I showed her the opening. I sigh. "Yes, I like Sammie, but you cant tell her that. ok?" Isabella nods happily.

"What do you like about her?". I hesitate. "I don't know. I just like her. I cant really explain it. I like her hair and all but she's just so different. She's silly but  at the same time so professional...Sorry Bella I cant really explain it" I say smiling.

Isabella smiles. "That's ok. I was reading this book and queen asked the prince what he liked about the girl he choose to marry and he said he couldn't explain it. So the queen said 'that when you don't know what makes you love someone it means you have so much that you love about them that it messes with your brain and you cant choose one thing"

Wow, what book was that?

"Thanks Bella" I say going in for a hug, but she stops me and hands me a folded piece of paper.

"I made it for you. Sammie told me about it" she says before hugging me and running upstairs probably to sleep. I unfold the paper and my eyes widen.

Its a picture of Sammie and I at the opening. Its not exactly perfect but its pretty good. We're laying down on my blanket sleeping. My head is resting on my pillow. One of my arms are around her waist and her head is resting on my chest. My other hand is grabbing hers which are laying my chest too. We both have slight smiles on our faces.

Dammit Bella is good at everything.

I stare at the picture for a little bit and fold it back up. I walk upstairs and go into my sisters room. She's already asleep so I guess she was really tired. I kiss her forehead. "Thanks Bella" I walk into my room and get ready to sleep. I put the picture on the dresser next to my bed. I'm gonna ask her on a date tomorrow. I mean we usually go on dates and stuff but this time it'll be a little different.

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I get in my car and start driving to school. I'm a bit nervous but I'm sure I'll be ok. I get a text when I pull into a school parking lot and park. I check and I'm surprised to see that it's from Zach.

From Zach:

Half way there ;)

What does that mean? I shrug it off and walk into the school.

I find Chase at his locker. "Hey Chase. I uh might be doing something stupid so I need your opinion"

"Sure what's up." I clear my throat. "I'm wanna ask Sammie to be my girlfriend." I say looking down. "You are?!?" He screams a smile on his face. I shush him. "Yeah"

Chase smirks. "Finally caught up"

I raise my eye brow. "With who?" Chase blushes and we start walking to our homeroom. "Oh come on, don't do that to me. What's been going on with you and Janie lately"

"Its great. She um...she's my girlfriend" he says  taking a seat in our class.

"Really? congrats man. I'm happy for you" Chase smiles. "Wait is that what you meant by catch up and how long have been dating?" Chase shrugs.

"Yeah and about two weeks now." My eyes widen "Why didn't you tell me earlier?" Chase laughs. "you've been hanging out with Sammie the past four weeks" I sigh. "Sorry" He nods. "Its fine"

~end of lunch~

"Sammie!" I yelled.

Sammie turns around and smiles. She starts walking towards me.

Ok don't back out.

"Hey" She says happily. " Hey, I was wondering if-"

"Sammie" I hear someone yell. I turn around and see Zach  running towards us. When he get here he grabs Sammie's hand and gives her a peck on her cheek.

I wince.

Are they?

Of course they are friends don't kiss each others cheeks.

Do they?

Zach turns to me and smiles. "Hey Alex" he says.

I shake my head. "Hey Sammie, are two a thing now?" Zach nods his head. I feel a bang of jealousy in my heart. "Oh well. Anyways, Sammie I'll tell you later. I forgot what it was"

Really forgot? That's the best you can come up with? 

She looks like she doesn't believe me but lets it go anyway. I turn around and walk calmly out the lunchroom. I take out my phone and text Chase.

To Chaser:

I'm leaving meet me outside.

I walk out side and get into my car.

About five minutes later.

Chase comes outside and gets into my car. "What's up?" I don't answer. I just start driving the car.

We drive for about 20 minutes. "Zach fucked me over" I say breaking the silence.

Chase pulls a confused face. "He asked her before I could"

Chase eyes widen and he looks at me. "Alex..."

I shake my head. "I just wanted you to take care of my car" I say as I park my car my car at the park. Chase hesitates but nods. I get out the car and walk quickly to the opening.

When I get there the blanket is already left out, so I guess I left it out by accident. I lay on the blanket and lets my thoughts run wild.

They're together? I thought she said she didn't like him. Maybe she was lying. I'm so stupid of course she likes him. but we've been together the past weeks. Like that meant anything.

I grab a flower and start pulling of the petals. I'm such an idiot. I sigh and lay on the blanket. The faint familiar vanilla smell is still on the blanket. I close my eyes and let a wave of darkness take me away.

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Hey You! What's up? I'm think i'm going to update every Friday. That way I wont have to write the whole sorry for not updating thing. I changed my name. I changed it to SoduhPops because that's my name for everything else sooo why not this? I don't really have anything to talk about so I'll leave you with a random message.

My telephone can talk...

~Soduh<3