Disorderly Conduct

Normal

I awoke to bright beams of light attacking my squinted eyes. "Come on, it's been a week since David split, and you haven't been out of bed. You broke up with him! Why are you sad," my mom said as she yanked open my curtains. "I thought he was different. Everyone in my life always pushes me to change who I am so that I can become their definition of normal. I thought he liked me for me. The way that I am now, but he wants me to change too," I explained.

She sat down on my bed with a sigh. "You know, when your dad left, I blamed you. My own daughter. I blamed you for so long for something you couldn't even control. It was much later when I realized that if your dad left because of a such a small disorder his own daughter had, then he didn't belong here anyway," she said. A single year slid down her cheek. "I thought maybe if I took you to therapy and gave medicine that he'd come back one day. I thought if I could make you the normal little girl you were that somehow he would come back to us. I didn't realize that there's nothing wrong with you, and I'm so sorry that I felt that way." Tears spilled over my lashes as I sat up to embrace her. "Sometimes, it takes people a little to realize that you're fine the way you are. You have to be patient, and they'll understand," she explained between sobs.

It was August and it'd been almost a month since David and I had talked. My mom and I were eating pizza and watching Saturday Night Live when an annoying back to school commercial came on. "I was thinking maybe I can go to public school for my last year of school," I said with a mouthful of pepperoni pizza. "Wow, are you sure?" I nodded. "I mean it's my last and I want to at least try to see how it is," I responded. "Well, if you want, but I don't want you to feel like you have to do anything you don't want to," she explained. "I want to," I assured hear.

A/n

I'm back! So sorry, I update on my phone and it was being very glitchy for some reason. Like it would never sync so I had to keep rewriting. I wasn't gonna put her in school but I just decided to do it since I didn't have any other ideas to make this story longer.

~Jordy