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~More Heartache~

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My heart aches for a full week without seeing Malia by my side every morning. It's hard to sleep. I just lie and stare at the ceiling and wondering what it is that will finally get her off my mind.

The day after our break up, I went by the house to leave Chance  with her mom. I spoke with her briefly on the phone in the morning , she and I agreed to not  see or speak to   each other for a while to give each other some time. So when I got to the house it was only Allison there. No one else knows the reason behind mine and Malia's  break up but Allison.

She was surprised by the news and very sad. Most of the group was but I wasn't there when they found out. I'd been staying home all week and Malia told everyone a different story. I told her it was okay as long as it was plausible.I just didn't want to risk them out casting her, even though they'd never do that.

But back to the day post breakup.

Since I was going to make the trip to leave my daughter, I also picked up some boxes to get a few things.

It wasn't  till I started packing the first few things in the boxes when I realized I no longer have the love of my life. I don't know how long it'll be till I forgive her but as of now I'm a hurricane of emotions.

I finally had packed up all my clothes but a my lacrosse sweater. I can't seem to find it. Most things I'd need at a house by myself.

I almost had it all in my jeep. All I needed was one more box. When I loaded the last box, I went inside to give Chance one last kiss before I was on my way.  I heard a car pull up but it being the afternoon  I thought it was my dad.

I kissed Chance and held her tight. I blew raspberries on her cheek and she giggled her cute baby laugh.

I hugged Allison before leaving. She assured me that everything would be okay.

How could any of this be okay?

I had opened the door and stepped out and saw Malia getting out of her car carrying her books. She's been in the library all day.

I then see something I'd probably want back.

I'm not sure if I should've approach the situation the way I did.

It may have been a bit insensitive.

"Hi" she said sorrowful.

"Hey" I replied flatly.

She stared at me apologetically.

"I'm just heading out" I said .

"Oh okay." She replied

I'm not sure why I needed it that second, but in my mind it wasn't her's anymore and just seeing her still have it did something to me. As much as it hurt to say it.

"I hate to ask this now but, can I  have the ring back?" I said. It felt so bitter coming out of my mouth.

Her lips pursed and her eyes a bit watery, I felt horrible.

"Yeah" she whispered as she took it off her finger.

She placed on my palm and sped off into the house.

Definitely don't like I approached it.

Shit! It 2am.

I better get some sleep me and Lydia have to find the nematan tomorrow. Lydia and I felt we should try to find it before telling Parrish he's the one taking the bodies.