Yesterday

Yesterday V

"My lips shivering in nervousness as my hands are trembling in anticipation."

Sometimes, we come across people that we never thought will have a great impact in our life. Some of them will stay, but most of them will leave.

Some people in your life will do nothing but to tear you down when you are continuously trying your best to stand up and build yourself.

Some leave you without giving you enough reasons. They'll leave you hanging for nothing.

There are times that you think that everything's okay, but the moment you close your eyes and open it again, everything's gone.

I hate how people come and go. I hate how they control me. Minsan bago ka gumawa ng isang bagay, you'll consider their opinions and everything. Before you do something you'll think if you will be able to please them.

It's hard to do all these stuffs. It's hard to pretend that you're okay when you know that deep inside your smiles, lies a thousand tears waiting to be shed.

Why can't they just understand that I am just a human, I also get hurt. I am only a human, I also cry when I fall down. Can't they see and feel that everything they do has an effect on me.

I never cry infront of anyone because that makes me look weak. I always display this cheerful disposition that I have to hide what's inside me.

To hide my insecurities, short-comings, and wrong-doings.

Everytime people get near me and they go "Do this,", "Do that," I'll just smile and the "I'm okay, let's get this done!" façade will be back again.

X X X

"Charity, the manuscript you sent us was good," Napangiti ako sa sinabi ni Ms. Precious, finally may nagawa akong maganda. "We will publish it next month along with the other Bitter-bells stories." She smiled at me sweetly. "You may go, keep up the great job."

"Thanks," I muttered. "Excuse me." Agad akong lumabas ng office ni Ms. P.

Finally, a book will be published under my name. Akala ko wala ng bebenta sa mga sinusulat ko kasi nga puro realidad ang nakalagay doon.

Buti nalang nagkaroon ng Bitter-bells. Isa 'yung imprint ng publishing house namin na nagfo-focus sa mga heart-breaking stories.

And na-approved ng manuscript ko for that imprint.

I entitled my book Broken Hearts, Where Art Thou?. Obviously it focuses on the amount of bitterness a human heart can produce.

"Congrats on your book." Napaigtad ako sa nagsalita. It was Sir Zach. It has been three weeks na walang balita sa kanya after nung confrontation naming sa lobby last time, nung niyaya niya akong mag-breakfast.

"Thanks, Sir—"

"Stop calling me 'Sir', magka-edad lang tayo. Zach nalang."

"Isn't that a little disrespectful?"

"As long as it is approved by me, then it's fine. Ako naman 'yung mababastos kung sakali, not you."

Napataas ang kilay ko sa tinuran niya. Seryoso ba siya?

"Familiar ka ba kay Agustus Waters?" He asked.