Nobody's Poems

It's Too Much

I lay here tonight
Crying as I wish the pain would end
I feel like nothing is alright this night
The blade opens up a wound I know I'll have to mend
It's right here, across my kyte
Why is it I always have to pretend?
It's like I have to recite something that is totally not forthright

What do I have to do
To prove to you I'm human too?
Do you need a clue?
I get the flu and I feel blue
I deal with a bunch of bullshit I'm trying to push through
Just like you

I want to scream!
I want to bleed!
I don't like this dream!
It's too extreme for me!
I want it to end! It's too much!
The only way I'll eat is if you force-feed!
This dream keeps getting worse indeed!
Can't anyone hear my pleads?
Please save me!

You don't understand
What is in my hand.
You think it's just a knife,
You're wrong, it's an ender of life.
A way to end an internal strife,
A way to go into the afterlife.

I bet it's like a dream
So serene
So calm
A place away from judgmental moms
And no cuts on my wrists or palms....

I want to scream!
I want to bleed!
I don't like this dream!
It's too extreme for me!
I want it to end! It's too much!
The only way I'll eat is if you force-feed!
This dream keeps getting worse indeed!
Can't anyone hear my pleads?
​Please save me!

Crimson is spilling
All over the floor
Oh no! Hide the knife!
There's a knock at the door!

No, the cat scratched just a little too hard.
Don't worry, I'll keep up my guard.
I'm fine, I promise.
Just another day in August...

The door is closed now
And I'm alone
I softly whisper:

I want to scream!
I want to bleed!
I don't like this dream!
It's too extreme for me!
I want it to end! It's too much!
The only way I'll eat is if you force-feed!
This dream keeps getting worse indeed!
Can't anyone hear my pleads?
​Please save me!