Ricky
I can't even begin to explain how much I'm hurting right now. Ericas parents are forcing me to marry her or it's good bye to my band my brothers my family. The scary thing and harder thing is Irina. I know she's going to so broken hearted. I just want to die. I'm just messing up at shows ignore fans. I'm a mess and broken down. I got drunk and passed out on stage. I can't even walk right! I'm not looking forward to telling everyone. I'm so scared for this weekend.
Irina
I'm broken in a thousand pieces my heart is ripped out of my chest. I'm just crying like a crazy person. He is so upset everyone is. Chris looks so pale Balz is like a ghost, Ryan is frozen and drop his guitar and ghost is just starting out the window. Ricky is on the floor crying with me. Holding me, I'm screaming dying inside slowly I feel like I'm going to throw up my heart. I'm destroyed, hopeless and in a dark place I can't get out of. Everyone is so broken. Catherine is crying with Vinny. I'm just going to be comatose for the next week. " baby I'm so sorry " Ricky says hugging me crying. " don't go please Ricky please ! I cry . I just wouldn't let go of him . We are all at the airport saying goodbye till the wedding next month. " sweetheart you gotta let me go I have to leave I don't have a choice in the matter " he says . Balz is trying to pry me off Ricky but I'm not letting go of him. " Irina look at me !" He says yelled kinda . " listen to me it's going to be ok you have your brothers here it's going to be ok !!" He yells at me . I feel like I'm in a room with no door out . balz finally gets me off Ricky and is holding me . "' take care of her Josh, if dating her helps then do it I can't do anything anymore " Ricky says to him . " alright I'll miss you Ricky " Josh says hugging him. " I'm sorry baby girl " he says then walks to to the gate . " RICKY Please Come BACK RICKY !!! I yell at him but he just looks so sad he's crying but doesn't come back. I'm in my brothers arms crying. " shhh it's going to be ok sis it's going to be ok " he says trying to make me stop but I can't. I'm done trying anymore. Maybe hurting myself really bad will make him come back to me .
