The next days have been hard for me. Waking up crying in the middle of the night and crying myself to sleep. I need him and he's not here for me. The fact that I have no idea what Ricky is doing scars me . I miss him so much . The shows are not the same . The replacement for him . Always try's to hit on me . None of the guys know because they are not around when he dose . I need Ricky right now . I'm scared without him here . " hey you wanna go for dinner " jake asks smirking . " I have a boyfriend! Just wait till he gets back he'll kick your ass ! Or if you don't stop now ILL GO MICHAEL MYERS ON YOU ! That's not a empty threat!!" I yell at him and walk to the front of the bus with him I smile and grab a knife and turn around he stiffen up really fast I laughed . " watch it boy I do know how to use a knife just like Michael dose it's not that hard to stab someone " I sneer at him placing it on the table Everyone is looking at me . " what the hell what's that about " asks my brother. " you're or mine or Rickys next victim that's what " I say . Catherine starts laughing at that . " umm yeah ok " he says laughing. I love my brother. " I love you ghost " I say hugging him . " I love you too sissy your going to be just fine , he's coming back tomorrow " he says smiling at me . Erica is looking confused about it and I just laugh.
Ricky-
Broken bottles everywhere, trashed house and broken mirror. That's what my life is like right now . I'm broken hearted and destroyed. My girlfriend isn't with me and I'm falling apart by the second. I tell everyone I'm doing fine without her but really I'm hell on wheels night and day . I gotta get her back now I can't take this anymore! I packed my bag and drove to the airport and went to LA where Irina and the guys are .
I text Chris and tell him I'm coming and to not tell Irina yet . " what made you come back Irina ? " he says looking over at me . " yeah Josh said she's been a wreck since last week and I have too and I don't think we can take this much longer " I say looking at the city lights . " she misses you so much and it's be nice to not have her screaming in the middle of the night every night " he says as we get to the bus . " here goes nothing " I say opening the door and walking in the bus and everyone attached to me . I hug them all and shit . " who are you my replacement, if so you can leave" I say to the guy who is just looking at me . " so typical like boyfriend " he says laughing. " excuse me !? Wtf did you just say " I yell . I push passed them , I don't see Irina , I run to the bedroom and there she is laying down crying listening to music. My heart breaks. If this how she's been for a week than I'm killing Ericas parents wait no I'll have her brother do it he's better . " baby? " I say walking to her . " RICKYYYYY!" She yells crying hugging me . " shhh I'm here shhh it's alright I'm here I'm not leaving " I say kissing her and holding her . I love her so much I'm not leaving her . I just lay here with her . We go to the front and jake is still here . " you can leave, Ricky's back " Irina spats at him . "What happened when I wasn't here babe" I asks glearing at him as I pull irina to my side " he tried to make out with me " she says . That's when I punched the living shit out of him . " leave now and stay the fuck away from My Girlfriend! I yell at him . " I'm here for a week sorry " says jake .
