Irina
I wake up without Ricky . It's been 3 days since he left and I cry all the time . I'm so broken down all the time. The guys quite the tour because Ricky's not on it right now . The fans are hurting because he left and because they found out about me and him . I just ignore texts and phone calls. I'm sitting in my apartment well me and Ricky's . He's coming by to get his stuff tonight. Dexter knows something is up because Ricky's not here and hasn't been here for a few days . I can't even look at a picture without crying. I hear a car door shut and the door open and there he is . Hair a mess way long . No makeup bloodshot eyes, looks like he's drunk and hasn't slept in years . I just look up at the man who is in front of me and cry in his arms. " I miss you so much " he says he says so quite. He's losing his voice. " Ricky please come back please I need you " I say crying. I'm so numb right now . " I wish I could baby I wish " he says picking me up and laying down in the bed with me . I just cry myself to sleep in his arms for one last time. I hear him singing lips of a angle . I wake up and see him standing on the balcony of the bedroom shirtless crying . I just walk up and rap my arms around him . " I can't do this, I don't love her I love you!" He says looking at me . " then don't do it stay with me " I say crying a little. " I wish I could Baby girl " he says kissing my hair. The guys are coming to help me and Ricky move. I'm moving into The band house with everyone because they want to keep an eye on me. I'm taking Dexter with me. I grab a couple of Ricky's hoodies and boxers and shirts to keep. Yeah I'm going to wear them to bed . This day is hell if It was real
