Just Let It Be.

12 - Knowing

It's been about two weeks since Angel and I moved in with the Sakamaki brothers as well as the Mukami brothers. Shuu still hasn't realised this or know since he's never home and Reiji think it's better to leave the subject alone. I sigh as I lay on my bed drawing a portrait of... you guessed it...Shuu. I feel stupid for allowing myself to fall in love with him. Damn it. I think to myself as I draw him. I didn't want that...I never had a chance. Another sigh escapes my lips as I close my sketch book and place it back in the chest where my other sketeches were. I make my way to the little window seat I have which is one of the best things about this room and look out the widow putting my headphones on. Looking out the window I see that its rather nice out. There were clouds in the sky giving shade from the sun every now and then and there seem to be a nice a breeze flying around. I smile softly as I watch the trees sway as if dancing in the wind. I glance at the ground and see Shuu walking with Monica. Ignoring the stinging sensation in my heart I smile knowing that he seems happy. Unfortunately Monica notices me and kisses Shuu. I look at my IPod as a song by Eyes Set To Kill plays. My IPod knows me to well. I bitterly think. My worst enemy still controls me. I see Monica leave and Shuu turns around heads back into the house. I sigh in relief as he didn't look up. I rest my head against the wall and close my eyes singing to the song I'm listening to.

~Shuu P.O.V~
Hmm...I haven't seen Sam in a while. I should go visit her. I walk back in the house and see Yuuma walking down the stairs. "Hey lazy ass I see you're actually on your own today." I roll my eyes at his comment but I understand what he means. I haven't really hung out with him or Sam or anyone really. Monica is always around and I tend to give her most of my attention. "Yeah, whatever. Want to go with me to visit Sam?" I ask him and he gives me a strange look. His facial expression then becomes annoyed. "You haven't even said anything to her in more than two weeks...you also probably don't know that she moved do you?" I go wide eyed at this "moved? Moved where?" Okay that came out more panicky than I tried to show but I didn't care. Yuuma looked at my expression and seemed to be observing me and it was starting to piss me off. "Yuuma answer the damn question?" Why was i becoming so impatient. I could just call or message her. I pushed Yuuma out the way and walked up the stairs to retrieve my phone from my room when Yuuma called out. "Shuu. She lives here with us. She's here in her new room. You want answers go ask her." After that he went back to whatever he was doing. New room? I walk towards the room I thought was still Sam's...the room next to mine. When I got there it was empty. Confused I turn to leave only to see Reiji standing there. "Judging by your expression I see you finally know about Sam and Angel living with us." He states. I nod "why did she switch rooms though?" I ask more to myself than my brother but he answer it anyways. "I decided that after Sam had fallen asleep a few weeks ago and as Ruki and Angel were bringing her to her room. They heard you and Monica expressing your 'feelings' for one another." I go wide eyed and begin to feel bad for some reason..Did Sam hear that...? Fuck....I'm such a dick... I hear Reiji sigh and adjust his glasses. "Luckily Sam was asleep...so she didn't hear those disgusting sounds..but why would you care? You've ignored her since you've been with your girlfriend. You didn't even noticed she was here or that the room next to yours was empty...you're a horrible excuse for a best friend." I glared at my brother but he's unfortunately right. I've been neglecting Sam and I need to make it up to her. "Where is her new room?" is all I asked. I didnt have to explain myself to him. Reiji glared back at me "answer my question first. Why do you care if all youre going to do aftr today is ignore her." Okay I feel like hitting him. "I care because she's special to me. She's my best friend. Why wouldn't I care care if she's important to me. Also I plan on making it up to her for the way I've been acting. Now tell me where her room is Reiji." He continued to glare "its the room next to Subaru's." As soon as those words left his mouth I quickly left towards Sam's room. I wonder if she's mad at me. I don't think she would be right? As I get to Sam's room I knock and wait for her to answer but nothing. Hm is she actually in there? I decide to open the door and poke my head in to see her sittingnby the window as if she were asleep. This girl is just as lazy as I am. I smile as I stare at her sleeping and think it's cute. But i know that she'll wake up in pain if she stays that way. So I gently lift her and place her on the bed. Which cause her to curl in a ball with a smile. The advantage of having a cute best friend. I sigh out quietly I guess I have to wait til she wakes up to ask her about the moving thing. I look around her new room and inspect everything. I notice she had her chest with sketches in it opened. I would enjoy looking at them and I wonder if there are any new ones. I go to open her sketch book and see many new drawings as I skim through I see she drew a portrait of me and I blush. Its a really great portrait too. I turn to look back at my sleeping best friend and remember the fun we use to have. I honestly miss hanging out with Sam. I mean she was always different. I knew that when I first saw her on my first day of school here. I knew we would be close and I admit to having hidden feeling for her but then Monica came and I guess I chose her. I sigh and think what it would be like if I had Sam as a girlfriend and honestly I think Sam would be a better choice over Monica sometimes considering Monica is a bit more high maintenance and needs to be with me everyday for some reason. Sam on the other hand has a more calm and comforting demeanor which I enjoy. Once again a sigh escapes my mouth and I go back to looking at the drawings. I wonder if she has any music books since she has a piano in here. Now that I think about it I wonder where her lyric book is. Since I found out a few days later after the dance she was the singer of that band that played. I had left early because of Monica sayimg she didn't feel well. I wonder if she would sing again so I could see it for myself also she has a nice voice. As i continue to snoop through her room for a music or lyric book I notice Sam shifting around and quickly sit at the window seat thing pretending I was sleeping. Sam sits up and stretches and looks right at me suprised. "Shuu?" I open one of my eyes and look at her. "Hey sleeping beauty. Have a nice nap?" She smiles and nods as little blush forms on her cheeks. "Why are you here? Oh was I out long?" I shake my head no and tell her that it was only about 30 minutes. She apologizes but I tell it's fine. "Sam...? Why have you...and Angel moved here with us. I mean I think it's great having my best friend staying here with me but I thought you liked having a place of you own. Her expression becomes a mixture of sadness and fear which makes me worried and I move to sit beside her on the bed. "Sam...what's wrong?" She looks down and then up at me. "Shuu...I um...I'm leaving here...because it isn't safe for me...where I use to live." I don't know what she meant but I hugged her. I asked her if she could explain more if I held her like this. she nodded and did her best to explain...As I listened to her explain and cry at what happened I only held her tighter. I can't believe someone would do that to her...I mean I know there are horrible people out there but for that to happen to her at such a young age... I held her til she calmed down and I kissed the top of her head. Yeah I know I have a girlfriend but I didnt think that was considered cheating. "Sam I promise I will always be here for you and I'll protect you as well. Im always a call away okay?" She moves away a little and I strangely feel saddened but ignore it. "Thanks Shuu. You're the best. Im glad you're my best friend." I smile "likewise. Now I see you moved rooms and that everyone helped as well and left a gift with their own personal touch so now its my turn to add something and I think I know what that is. Come on." I grab her hand and pull her out the room and head to mine. As I technically drag her to my room I notice Azusa and Angel walking in oir direction and look surprised. "Whoa blondie isnt with his girlfriend!" Angel shouts Azusa only shrugs and stares as he sees Sam. She waves hello to them. "Hey guys! I'm being kidnapped bye!" We passed them both and I chuckle seeing their expression. "Hey I'm not kidnapping you. You arent fighting back so its not a kidnap." She giggles "whatever blondie~" She knows I hate that nickname Angel gave me months ago. "You're gonna get it...shorty~" I smirk as she sticks her tongue out at me as we reach my room. I tell her to sit down as I go to my closet to get something I've been holding for her since I never got the chance to give it to her. Sam starts humming to herself as I search my closet. I smile to myself as it sounds beautiful. Now i know she has a hidden lyric book somewhere and I will find it. Ah hah! Found it. I take the case holding her gift and take it to her. She tilts her head to the side. "What's that?" I chuckle "it's my gift for you..I got it custom made just for you a while ago just never had the chance to give it." She nods as I sit on the bed with her and hand her the case. "Open it." Was all that left my mouth. She did as I said and when she saw it. She gasped. "No..Shuu you didnt!?" I smirked "I did and it's all yours. Every last detail in it reminded me of you." She softly touched the violin and looked as if she was admiring it. I knew she had been saving up for a violin of her own but now she has one that's unique and her own. She closed the case and tackled me into hug causing us to fall off the bed. "Thank you so much Shuu! You have no idea how happy I am right now!" A chuckle escapes me "I'm glad you like it. Now we can play together." She smiles at me and I smile back forgetting the position we're in. That is until she turns red with realization and I do as well. "Im sorry!!" she quickly says as moves off of me and helps me up. I tell it's fine and dont worry. She nods but still looks worried and looks around. I raise a eyebrow. "Sam its really okay. Relax." She sighs.

~regular P.O.V.~
I am secretly panicking as Shuu tells me to relax. I cant relax Monica coukd have a secret camara recording in here that could catch what just happened. "Come on lets go back to your room and play music together." he says I only smile grabbing the violin case with my new violin and walking out back to my room. As we were walking to my room Angel asks if she could talk to me. I tell Shuu to just wait in my room for me and he nods and heads there with my violin. Once he was out of sight I turn to Angel. "Whats up?" She stares at me "Did he ask why we moved here?" I nodded "and?" I sighed "I told him what happened....minus all the Monica stuff....I couldnt bring myself to tell him about her and her involvement." Angel sighed in frustration. "Sam! That's something he should know!" she exclaims I flinch at the tone and hang my head low. "I....I know...but...he's happy...I can't ruin that..." Angel hugs me "fine...at least he knows you're not entirely safe." I nod and turn to leave. "Sam? I'm glad you two are spending time together finally but be careful." I nod once again as I understood what she meant. I need to keep my feelings in check as well as know that this is probably the last time we will hang out for a while. As I enter my room Shuu was looking at book. A book i noticed was my journal for lyrics. "Hey!? Thise are private!!" I snatch it from him and place it back in its spot between the two books he gave me. He chuckles "nice hiding spot and the ones I did read were very nice. You're good at writng music and lyrics." I turn red at his comment and mutter out a thank you. "Lets begin shall we?" he says and I nod as he sits at the piano and I take out the violin and play it. It's already tuned perfectly as I continue to play Shuu joins in with the piano. We continue to play together for quite sometime since we didnt notice how late it was until we looked out the window. We both shrugged and played one more time before heading down to find a snack since dinner was probably over. We made our way to the kitchen and found leftovers to eat. We reheated them and ate while catching up more. Everything was going well but deep down there was this nagging feeling that something bad was going to happen I just it. I push the feeling aside as I continue to talk with Shuu. Once we finished eating. We went back to my room and just layed on the floor watching tv mindlessly until it got super late and it was time for bed. Shuu said good night and I replied sweet dreams and he left. I closed my door and locked it so I could change into my pjs which was still Ruki's shirt. It was just too comfy. As I lay in bed and turn on the start projector thingy I smile happily about how today went and fall asleep.

A/N: Hey my marshmallows!! How have you been? :3 Good I hope and if not ._. I will cut whatever it is for you because you all mean a lot to me for sticking by side. So yeah! Welp I see Shuu got his point of view in o.o do you think Sam should have included Monica's involvement or no? Also who do you ship together? :3 SamxShuu, SamxAzusa, SamxRuki or SamxSubaru? Let me know because I'm curious on who you guys prefer together because I still dont know who she'll end up with. Anywhoozles things will start going crazy soon so prepare thise bums my marshmallow minions! ~DeerBot