Just Let It Be.

10 - Scarred & Scared

~Normal P.O.V~

I woke up and tried to move but couldn’t. I notice I’m no longer outside and I am in someone’s bed but who’s? Slightly shifting so that I could turn without waking whoever I’m being held by I turn to see it’s Ruki as he snores quietly. Why am I in Ruki’s bed…? My face becomes red as realization hits me slowly. WHY AM I IN RUKI’S BED?! Inside I continue to panic as I try to get out of his grip gently but I fail when he just holds me tighter. “Where…are you going..? He says in his very attractive sleepy voice that makes my face become redder. “I…um…to my room?” I stutter out while cursing inside. Ruki just pulls me closer into his chest. (Which is bare by the way! Oh yeah imagine it ladies and gentleman xD) “Because you’re staying with me tonight…since I found you outside...” he states. I turn to face him and I look up a little. “You found me outside? Did I fall asleep…?” My eyebrows furrow and i feel Ruki place his hand on my cheek gently. “Why were you crying…?” I sigh “I feel like I’m losing my best friend…and everyone else…” Tear threaten my eyes as I start thinking about losing everyone I’ve come to care about. “Hey….you know that’s not true…You’ll always have me, Angel, and the others…As for your best friend if he doesn’t realize the truth soon it will be his loss…not yours.” I only nod and scoot closer into Ruki’s chest. I didn’t understand why I felt safe around Ruki…just like I did when Shuu and I would hang out... I guess that’s because since Shuu has been ditching me I’ve become closer to Ruki…I mean he’s the second one I had told the truth too. Reiji being the first thanks to Angel. I feel Ruki places his arm around me again. “Do you want something else to sleep in? I can give you a shirt long enough so that you’re more comfortable.” I notice I’m still in regular clothing so I nod and he gets up and goes to his closet. I sit up and wait for Ruki to return. “Here you go this should be fine. You can use my bathroom” he points to the bathroom and lies back down. “Thanks Ruki, Be right back.” I chime as I head to the bathroom. I undress and look at the scar that is on my hip…The words that were once there are slightly visible but other than that it’s just a scar that reminds me of my past. I sigh heavily and put the shirt that Ruki gave me on. It went down mid-thigh maybe a little longer. The sleeves were a bit long but the shirt itself was soft and comfy…and it smelt like Ruki; a scent that comforts me lately. I shake my head erasing any ideas of dating Ruki… Do I really want to be loved that badly…? No…maybe. Not possible…I’m too broken…no one wants me right…not something this damaged…Right? Another sigh escapes my lips as I entangle my left hand into my hair as a headache forms. “Stupid voice in my head…shut the hell up already…” Folding my clothes neatly and leaving them on the counter I exit the bathroom and see that Ruki was reading a book. “All done, sorry I took long.” He smiles at me and sets the book down on the table next to him. “It’s alright; you look really cute in my shirt. I want you to keep it.” I nod and smile with a faint blush on my cheeks. “Thanks! My new PJs hehe” I walk over to the other side of the bed and get under the covers and Ruki does the same thing and puts his arm around me again. “You know you don’t have to hold me.” I giggled and Ruki smirks “I know but I want to plus I like cuddling in my sleep so I’m enjoy this.” I giggle again and nod. I lift my head slightly to kiss hiss cheek. “Thank you Ruki, you’re awesome. I’m glad I have you here by my side... I yawn and snuggle into him drifting to sleep. “Always… my little Sam...” Ruki whispers and kisses my forehead before I completely knock out. 

~Le Next Morning~

I woke up to the sound of a camera going off and my eyes open slightly to see that it’s Monica. Oh no… She giggles “I see your also in his shirt~ Looks like you had fun” I sit up and just ignore her. I look to see Ruki isn’t there. “He probably didn’t want to wake up next to you…then again who would after a night with you.” She snickers. “ I sigh “Please just leave me alone already…I don’t understand why you do this…didn’t you do enough the past three years..?” She only shrugs and then smirks “I can always end this whole charade everyone here is playing and you can just go back to be a nobody.” My eyes widen “ch-charade..?” I hear her giggle “Honestly Sam, do you really think they would be ‘friends’ with someone like you? It’s only because they pity you because Reiji is dating Angel. Even she is probably pitying you because she’s family.” I shake my head “Liar…I don’t believe you...” She scoffs “How dare you call me the liar..! The only lie here is you and you know it.” She walks closer “You know Sam….I’m still in contact with ‘him’….maybe a visit from him would be nice huh?” I become horrified and scared. I move away from her as far as I could without falling off the bed. “What are you doing in my room Monica? I don’t think Shuu would like that…get out now...”  Ruki says with venom in his voice. “Oh hey Ruki, sorry I invaded your room but I was told to look for Sam” she says cheerfully. I on the other hand was afraid with fear by what she said moments ago…I no longer cared what she has on me…knowing she knows him, still talks to him scared the living hell out of me I was shaking from it. “Who told you this?” Ruki questions “Yuuma did he said he needed her help.” she states. Ruki glares “how is that possible when I’ve been with him all morning setting up Sam’s new room…you know I don’t appreciate being lied to…I also didn’t like what you said to Sam…So get out my room now before I throw you out.” Monica goes wide eyed “Ruki you’re scary but I don’t know what you mean...” Ruki walks over to her “I said get out…or else.” Monica glared at him and left quickly slamming the door behind her. I was still trembling unbearably I didn’t hear Ruki calling my name. “Sam! Sam! Samantha!” I felt him wrap his arms around as the tears fell from my eyes. “Sam! What did she say to you?” he asks as he becomes worried. I tried to talk but nothing came out. I cried into Ruki’s chest as he tried to calm but as safe as I felt. Just knowing he could show up at any time terrified me. “Sam what did she say…?” I hear say but it too sounded pained. Was I the cause but why? “She-sh-she still….t-talks to him! Ruki I’m scared! I can’t!!” I could barely form words but the fact that I had mentioned ‘him’ made Ruki tighten his arms around me. “I won’t let him near you I promise Sam! I will never let you be hurt again.” I continued to cry and tremble. I can’t put you or the others in danger! Can’t you see that! I did my best to shake my head “danger…I can’t put you in danger or the others! I can’t!” Ruki holds me close “I don’t care. I also know the others won’t care either as long as you’re safe.” He lifts my face towards him “Sam, I promise to protect you and to be here for you even after what you told me and I meant it. I need you to understand you’re no longer alone and you don’t have to keep fighting by yourself.” he kisses me gently and then moves away slightly “and I meant that too…” I sniffle and nod. “I’m going to go get Angel and the others so we can let them know the she-devil has said. And Subaru and Azusa need to know the truth so that they know what could happen soon. I’ll lock the door and don’t worry about opening it I have a key to this room.” I nod and sit there slightly quivering but I feel better. Ruki leaves the room and I hear the door lock. 

~Monica’s P.O.V~ 

I look around the corner to see Ruki locking his door. Dammit! Humph…why does he care so much about that thing…In fact why do they all care? Even my own boyfriend! This is infuriating! She needs to be a nobody again! Screw that she needs to become completely erased from my sight! I smirk to myself knowing I had a new pic of Sam in Ruki’s bed with his shirt on and at least two of my friends won’t like that. Time to remind Sam you shouldn’t break rules. I quickly take my phone out and text Abigail and Darcie about Sam and Ruki along with the picture. Within seconds they message me back about how they’ll make her pay. Oh how I love my friends. I then look for certain number and call it. “Hey there~ I have some news for you. Care to listen? It's about Sam~” I hear someone being pushed off a bed and some shuffling. I giggle "Knew that would get your attention." 

Well it's been a while.... I also know this ending will make Emiko mad muahahahaha! Also i apoligize my minions. I have started a new job and its become difficult to update on a normal basis but i will try my best to update ;^; Another note for the story Little Secrets that Emiko and i are both writng will be on a short hold while she works on Cursed Memories! Our first baby we started together but had neglected Q^Q with all that said bear with us and continue to read our stories <3 ~ DeerBot