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Chapter 29 - Harry

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                                                            ●•Harry•●

I literally mean it when I say I can’t get her out of my head. And I swear this time I ain’t even gonna try. Let’s face it, I like the thought of her, and I like the way how I still feel her in my arms even if she’s not there. I like this tingling in my lips that’s been there since the second she pulled apart from our kiss, and I’ll make sure it stops by kissing her again. And you can bet your arse that I’m gonna do it soon.

By the time when I get home I can’t even think straight; I’m just unconsciously walking towards my room because all I can think about is Kirsten. I don’t even care if I’m bumping into everything that shows up on my way, and I certainly won’t bother to pick them up now. Nah, I can do that tomorrow.

Right now I need a shower, and then I’ll go to bed, sure that tonight that girl won’t leave my head no matter what happens. I don’t want to, either. God! I can’t believe how good it feels to be like this again… It’s so stupid, yet so gratifying. I am not even kidding when I say I haven’t felt like this in years. It’s like I’m learning how to live again; it feels as if I was just born once more. So… alive.

I wanna pull her into my arms again; I wanna kiss her like there’s no tomorrow again and I want to feel her holding me that way again. And again, and again… I’m sick of her pushing me away because she needs to build those stupid walls for some reason I still can’t understand. I’m done with having to beg her for a smile because she wants to pretend she doesn’t like me. She does! I know that now. In her own awkward way, she likes me! She even complimented me once, and I really don’t care about the way it happened, or how she had to let that compliment implicit. She still did it, and I won’t ignore that.

I won’t let her forget that kiss because I know she liked it. Dammit, she held me so close. She was so addicting and I… Argh! What’s that about her that’s driving me crazy? I’m not sure yet, but I’m gonna find out. And after that little moment we had I’m sure I’ll follow her whenever I can. I’ll push her buttons until she finally admits she wants to kiss me again, and I have no doubts it’ll happen sooner or later.

When I come out of the shower and lay on bed, I still have this stupid smile on my face, from ear to ear, which is kind of starting to hurt, but I don’t care. I close my eyes and I see her, I feel her, I taste her… And that way, I have really nice dreams.

“Curly!” Charlie exclaims while hugging me tightly, more than what she actually needed. It’s been a while since I last saw her and I missed her happiness. She’s the kind of person that cheers me up when I need some help with that; not that I needed anyone to cheer me up today.

“Charlie,” I said softly, pushing her away slightly just to breathe again. “Hello!” a smile spread across my lips as I said the word, and she smiled back, already closing the door behind her.

“Someone sounds happy today,” she noted and my smile grew wider. Yeah, I was, indeed, very happy. And I really mean it. I wasn’t like on those days where everything was just fine; on its right place. Today everything was perfect. And I am feeling so stupid.

“Who?” I played along with her, furrowing my eyebrows whilst she giggled. “I can only see both of us here.”

“You jackass,” Charlie patted my chest, running her fingers to my cheek to squeeze it right after. “Okay, where are you taking me today?”