Dear You,
Come to realize that not everything you try to bury is dead.
I've been having a real hard time getting myself out of a place where all I do is dream. A place where I know everything will be alright. A place where I'm comfortable with myself, where I love and appreciate myself.
My problem was that it wasn't real. I'm in the real world. I understand what's possible and what is not. I may not love myself, but I learned to accept myself and from there I can only move on.
And I think that's what you need, that's what I wish for you. I wish you to find yourself. Please don't change yourself or shape yourself into someone you're not to appease the people around you. Because you won't find yourself, you'll only lose who you are and what you mean to YOU. Be you, accept yourself, and then you won't run into people... like me. You'll find the people to love you for you and who will stick around.
I'm sorry I wasn't that. I'm sorry I hurt you. It wasn't intentional and I accept part of the blame. And I apologize on my half.
I just needed time to get to where I am now and I thank you and appreciate you for letting me do so. And for understanding.
I didn't lie to you. I swear. I did plan on seeing you again, it's just along my journey... I found someone new. And I am happy.
I hope one day to hear from you, and not about you. But from you. We can talk about our time away from each other, we could get to know each other all over again, less intimately.
I cherish your existence and your friendship. I don't blame you for anything nor think of you negatively. I love you for letting me get to know you the way I did. And for giving me a chance to learn about myself. I hope to talk to you soon. You know how to contact me.
When you're ready.
When you're you.
-A.
