Beauty Is In The Eye Of The Beholder

Part 11

You laid in bed next to Calum, Watching him as he scrolled through his phone, You reached over to play with one of the bracelets on his arm but he moves away from you. You let out a sigh and got up from the bed, Grabbing your pillow and one of the duvets that was sat on the back rest of one of the chairs sat in the room.
"Where are you going?" He says, breaking the silence.
"I'm gonna go crash on the floor in the living room." You say.
"Why?" He asks.
"Because Calum, I'm not going to sit here and try to cuddle my boyfriend and then him just shy away like i have some kind of disease." You say.
"I'm not trying to shy away i just-" he starts but you cut him off.
"Yeah i know, You're freaked out, But newsflash Calum people deal with stupid pregnancy scares all the time, it happens, And last time i checked me simply touching you isn't going to put a baby inside me, so suck it up and stop acting like having a child with me is the worst possible nightmare you could have." You say.
"I'll see you in the morning." You add as you walk out of the room.

4:00 AM
You grabbed your suitcase that was sat in the closet, Setting it on the edge of the bed, You woke Calum up as the suitcase hit the bed.
"What are you doing up so early?" Calum asks as he sits up, Rubbing the sleep out of his eyes.
"Why do you have your suitcase? We don't leave until tomorrow afternoon.." He adds.
"You guys don't, I leave in about..... An hour and a half." You say looking at the time on your phone, You slide it back into your back pocket and begin throwing your clothes in the suitcase.
"You're leaving?" He asks and you nod your head.
"Back to Aus?" He asks as well and you shake your head.
"It's Jenny's birthday, I'm flying out to see her." You say.
"So what? You're gonna go stay with her at her university?" He asks and you shake your head.
"She has her own place, Off campus." You say, He grabs your arm and you stop doing what you were doing to look at him.
"Are you leaving because you're mad at me or something?" He asks.
"No Calum, I have my own friends, That i haven't seen in almost two years, And i'd like to see them." You say.
"And when was this trip planned?" He asks, You stop what you were doing again to look at him once more.
"Last night." You say point blank.
"Well... I thought we were going to visit your dad before we went back home." He says.
"Home? Calum Aus is YOUR home. And i didn't decide to go see my dad, You did." You say
"Besides, It's not like he gives a shit if we get married." You add. Calum glares at you and shakes his head, Letting out a disgusted scoff.
"Yeah... Sounds like you don't either." He says, He gets out of the bed and walks to the bathroom, Slamming the door shut behind him, You could hear him curse under his breath and seconds later, Something crashes to the floor, He obviously threw something and he was obviously pissed.
It only took you a few minutes to pack up everything and when you finished you walked over to the bathroom door.
"Calum?..... Can you please open the door?" You ask. Calum slowly opened the door and shoved passed you, about to walk out but you grabbed his arm, Stopping him in his tracks.
"Can i please explain why i need to leave?" You ask.
"Because it's Jenny's Birthday, You told me this already." He says, Yanking his arm out of your hand.
"No, Well yes, That but... Also because i think we need some time apart..." You say, You could feel your voice shake, And a lump forming in your throat, You didn't realize how hard that actually was to say until now. Calum looks at you, He looks a bit shocked and confused..
"Why?" He asks.
"I have been with you almost everyday for the last three years. And i've loved every minute of it. But lately.... Not so much." You say and he slowly sits down on the bed, He looked nervous and scared, Scared that you were going to break his heart.
"It's not your fault. I just... I feel like everything is going wrong. If you keep something from me i get pissed, i feel like i can't trust you and if i don't tell you something, You get pissed and feel like you can't trust me. I hate having to deal with the Arzaylea business and i know nothing happened between you two but i hate being around her and around you at the same time. I hate opening my phone and being blown up with notifications of fans and other people talking about our business being out in the open, Or there being stupid rumors, I hate seeing you disappointed and disgusted with the pregnancy rumor going around, I hate that it's so appalling to you that i COULD HAVE been pregnant." You say. He just stares at the ground, His hands clenching together and his face turning red and his eyes watering.
"Bry had said something to me once that kinda opened my eyes..." You begin and Calum looks up at you.
"She told me that the one thing she hates the most about dating Ashton, Is that when people look at her, they don't see her as Bryana Holly, The gorgeous model. They only see her as Ashton Irwin's Girlfriend." You explain.
"I want to be known as [Y/N], Not just Calum Hood's girlfriend." You say. He looks at you, Shaking his head, You can see a tear fall from his eye but he quickly wipes it away.
"Fine." He says as he stands up, Walking towards you.
"You are no longer Calum Hoods girlfriend." He says. Your heart began to beat fast and hard in your chest, He grabs your hand and lifts it up in front of you, Slipping your engagement ring off your finger.
"Have a safe flight." He says as he walks out of the room, Shutting the door behind him.