Beauty Is In The Eye Of The Beholder

Part 15

You laid in bed playing with a loose sting on the duvet, You couldn't help but think back to yesterday and the accident you had and how embarrassed you felt. Your phone was with notifications on your social media, You knew it was most likely people talking about the fight at the beach, You reached over to the bed side table and grabbed your phone, turning it off you open the drawer and toss it in, Shutting th drawer.
The bedroom door opened and Calum walked in with a plate of food and a drink in his hands, He sat on the bed next to you and set the plate between the two of you and your drink on the table.
"I'm not hungry." You say.
"I don't care." he says
"Ashton and Jenny told me you haven't been eating." He adds.
"Or sleeping. That's why you've been feeling so ill." he says
"Thanks Dr. Hood. I wasn't aware." You say and he lets out a sigh
Calum climbs on the bed and lays down next to you, Turning the TV, He switches through the channels and takes a sip of your drink.
"Can you please leave?" You ask.
"Nope. Not unless you finish everything on your plate." He says as he takes another sip of your drink, You felt so irritated with him the only thing you could think to do was grab the cup and tilt it so it spilt all over him.
"Are you insane?!" He yells as she shoots up from the bed.
"Yeah! I must be if i dated you!" You yell as you stand from the bed as well, You walk over to the door, ready to leave but Calum grabs your arm and you yank it out of his grip
"Don't touch me!" You yell.
"Stop yelling!" He says through gritted teeth as he grabs a hold of your arm again, You try to push him away from you but his grip was too tight, You tried to get him of you but he put you in bear hug, As you tried to push him away one last time you both stumble back against the wall and he holds you there and you just begin to cry.
"I hate you." You say through your sobs.
"No you don't." He says with a shaky voice.
"Yes i do." You say as you try your best to push him again but he held you even tighter.
"No you don't." He whispers as he tries to catch his breath, You can feel it fan over your face, He was so close to you and he kisses your lips and you couldn't help but kiss him back.

He was like a drug and you were the addict, You missed the rush he gave you when he kissed you, The feeling of his lips on yours made you feel good, and sick at the same time, but you couldn't help but kiss them. His hands grabbed your face hard as he kissed you even harder, Before you knew it your clothes were off and so was his, He grabbed your legs and propped you up against the wall, He thrust in you and you let out a moan, You missed the way he felt. His lips made there way to your neck and could feel his breath on your skin as he opened his mouth and let out a moan.
"You're so beautiful." He says and You began to feel sick again as you the images of the girl and Calum filled your mind.
"Stop!" You say.
"What?" He says.
"I said stop!" You yell again and he lets you go, You grab you clothes and put them on.
"Please leave." You say.
"What's wrong?" He says as he slips on his pants.
"Just leave! Please." You say.
"What did i do?" He asks as he tries to touch you to calm you,.
"Calum please!" You say once more. He stood there for a second and you just stared at the ground until he finally left.
You sat on the bed and began to cry.
You couldn't even sleep with him without hating him even more.

5:00 Am
You laid there in the bed, Contempating on what you were going to do. You didn't want to be here anymore. There was no point in you being here anymore. You didn't have Calum anymore, And if you didn't have Calum you didn't have the rest of the boys, You had no family, Your friends are grown and have their own life. You have nothing.
You grabbed your bag and slipped on your shows, Grabbed your phone and headed out the door, You made sure to be extra quiet as you snuck passed Calums room and out the front door. You didn't really know where you were gonna go but you just wanted to walk. Just go anywhere it didn't matter just as long as it was far from Him.

You sat on the beach and watched as the waves came crashing up by the shore, The air was warm and and the sand was soft and you felt alright for a second and you just wished you could stay in this spot forever, But your mind went back to him and you felt sad again. You couldn't be here anymore. You grabbed your phone out of your bag and dialed Ashton.
"Hello?" He says in a groggy voice, He must have just woken up.
"I need my ticket back." You say calmly.
"[Y/N].. Please don't-" He says.
"Ashton i'm serious. Please can i have it back?" You say, You began to get a bit frustrated and you wanted to cry but you held it in. It was silent for a bit on the other line.
"Fine." He says with a sigh.
"Where are you?" He asks and you told him, He said he'd be there in just a few, To wait there and he'd meet you.

30 Minutes later
You see someone sit next to you in your peripheral vision and you could tell who it was right away and it wasn't Ashton.
"What are you doing here?" You ask, Keeping your attention on the ocean in front of you.
"Ashton told me you were here." He says
"Please don't go." He whispers with a shake in his voice, You look over at him and see tears in his eyes. You just shake your head and scoff as you turn your attention back to the water.
"You know what i don't understand?" You say with a tiny laugh.
"You don't really know how much i love you." You say.
"Yes i do." He says and you look at him and shake your head.
"No. You don't." You say.
"I would die for you. I would do anything for you and i have. I dropped everything. School. For you. I left my friends behind so i could travel with you so you could have me closer with you when you were gone because that's what YOU wanted. I've dealt with being called names and being threatened and wouldn't tell you about it so YOU didn't worry. You screwed another girl and i said nothing and you didn't even apologize. I've dealt with rumors about YOU. I've lied for YOU and i've kept things from people. For YOU. You always thought that you loved me more but you really didn't. Because "i will love you until the world stops" doesnt really mean shit to you because if you really loved me you would put MY feelings first. You wouldn't put me down for befriending Arzaylea when i wanted to make peace because you wanted to be alfa, You wanted to show me who was boss, 'YOU can't be friend with them [[Y/N] if i'm not friends with them.' 'Don't do this [Y/N] its not like you.' 'Don't talk about that [Y/N] i can't have people thinking that.' And i loved you so i didn't. You can screw a girl and it's okay but i can't even look at another man without you freaking out." You begin
"I excepted your proposal because i was going to trust you with my life. I was going to commit myself one hundred percent to you,. But you know Calum..... I don't think i can do that anymore, when you can't think about committing, Hell, You were scared to even think about having a child with me." You add.
"Theres a saying Ashton said once when we were in Bali, 'Beauty Is In The Eye Of The Beholder'. He said it about Arz and Luke and how he cars too much about her to see that what she does is bad.. But now that i think about it... I think it applies to us. I was just so in love i couldn't realize how fucked this relationship was." You say.
Calums was crying now, He wouldn't even look at you, It hurt to see him cry but you were hurt too. And he didn't care.
"I do love you. I'll do anything please!" He says. You look down at the sand and thought about it, You didn't want to be haarsh anymore but you need to show him what his life was going to be like without you in it.
"Call Ashton and tell him to give me my ticket." You say point blank, Calum looks at you for a second and then tilts his head back as he takes in a deep breath, he didn't want to do it, but he reaches and grabs his phone from his pocket and dials the number and puts it up to his ear.
"Ashton mate." He says with a sniff as he wipes his nose with the back of his sleeve.
"Yeah, I need you to meet [Y/N] at the beach, She needs-" he starts but he chokes up, he clears his throat and wipes his nose once more.
"She needs her ticket." He says.
"I'm fine Ash, please?" He adds.
"Thanks mate." He says as he hangs up the phone. He looks over at you and wipes his face.
"He'll be here in five." He says and you nod your head.
"Thank you." You say,
"I told you i loved you, And i would do anything so i did." He says as he puts his phone back in his pocket, You look at him and he looks at you for a second, His eyes travel around your fave, really looking at you, His mouth forms in to a tiny sad smirk, He leans over and kisses your cheek.
"Have a safe flight." He says as he stands up and walks off.