Winter Tragedy ~Sequel to Summer...Tragedy?~

Chapter Nine: Two M's

This will probably be just a filler. I have realized that I have only done like one Zayn's POV, so I figured that I would fill you in on his POV, therefor it will just be a filler and will be short, sorry.

Zayn's POV:

"Rosa said, 'at Zayn Malik, you used to be my idle. I thought you'd never cheat on any girl, but I was wrong, manwhore hastag Zayn Malik is a manwhore" I said.

"Don't listen to them, Zayn." Niall said.

"Easy for you to say, you have no problems in your life right now." I said.

"I have been getting hate for more than three years now, and Amanda doesn't even remember me." Niall replied.

"At least she is awake." I said.

"Zayn, just remember, you are not the only one getting hate. I am, Liam is, Nikki is, Emma is, Amanda is, but she doesn't even remember she has a Twitter, Louis is and Harry is." Niall reminded.

"I know, but what if they are right?" I asked. Lately, I feel like this people sending the hate is right. What if I am a manwhore? I cheated on Emma. I'm obviously not a good person. The worst part is, is that I let her take things too far. Also, I could've said no or stop, but I didn't.

"I deserve all this hate." I mumbled to myself.

"Zayn, do not say that. No one deserves hate." Niall said. I looked up at him, wondering how he heard me say that.

"Niall, I'm a horrible person. I'm a manwhore. I'm not a good person. It was all my fault. I could've said no or something to make her stop, but I didn't. What if I got her pregnant, too?"

"Zayn, you aren't a manwhore, please stop, don't do this to yourself." Niall warned. I shook my head at him. I know he is trying to help, but he has never been called a manwhore.

"I don't even know why Emma forgave me, or even let me touch her." I said, remembering the hug she gave me.

"Emma just saw things from you point of view. It's the type of person she is." Niall said. I knew that Emma was that type of person, but even though she is that type of person, she shouldn't have forgiven me.

"I know that Niall, but she still shouldn't have forgiven me. She should've just stuck to hating me." I replied. I got up off the couch and walked in to the bedroom that I was staying in. I jumped in the bed and shoved my head in the pillow.

I couldn't enjoy this tour knowing that I'm a manwhore. I still can't believe I did what I did. At first it was juts some helpful advice, but than she just started, dirty talking. The memory came back. I shook my head, hoping to get the memory out, but it didn't.

"Get out of my head!" I yelled, grabbing fists of hair. I didn't want to be reminded of her, because it's my fault I let her tare me and Emma apart.

Ever since the baby has died, memories of her came. I swear, sometime I'm going to start having night mares.

I know I should be thankful for Emma's life, and I am, but I would defiantly give my life up for that babies life without hesitation.

I opened my eyes and turned on my back and stared at the ceiling, thinking of things my first child would've done. She could've cured cancer. Became a genius. Or she could've been a drug addict, but I don't want to think about those possibilities.

She could've grown up to be a beautiful, smart, lovable women, but I had to get in the way of that.

Manwhore and murderer. Two M's. I'm both of them.

Another wave of tears hit because of Alice's death.

Alice's death caused by me.

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"How does Management expect me to go out on stage, and sing in front of everyone and go to interviews when fans hate me and my baby just died. Someone has have had to notice." I complained to Louis.

"I don't know. Just go with the flow. I know it's hard, to go through that. Don't tell me I don't, because I know you will, but I've been through pain also. Management has been getting on everyone's nerves. But, just don't keep your emotions bottled in. It's unhealthy." Louis advised.

"Thanks." I mumbled, looking at the black van in front of us 5. I didn't want to go to the interview. The interviewer would surely ask questions about Emma and where she has been. Or she will act like everything is all peachy, which will make me pissed.

I was the last one to climb in the van. I just wanted to go crawl back to bed and stay under the covers and cry because I don't deserve this. I don't deserve all the money in the world, because I am a manwhore and a murderer.

It felt like a second before we had finally arrived at the interview. Once James had parked the car, all of us climbed out. We walked through the parking lot and entered the building.

After going through what will happen, we got ready.

I seriously didn't want to do this. The girl was obviously going to ask about girlfriends.

She introduced us and we walked out. I followed Harry towards the set and sat down on one of the chairs.

I zoned out a bit, but sort of listened, because she could ask me a question at any minute.

"Who's taken and who's not?" She asked.

Great. I thought.

"Single." Harry said, looking at the interviewer.

I gulped and said, "Single."

"I think I'm single." Niall said. I noticed the interviewer furrowed her eyebrows, but continued on looking towards Louis.

"Taken." He said.

"Taken." Liam informed.

"Alright, so what do you mean you think, Niall?" The girl asked.

"Well, as you all know my girlfriend, Amanda, got into a car crash and slipped in to a coma. Well, she woke up, but she has amnesia, so I think we are off since she doesn't remember me. But, I could be wrong. I'm almost positive she doesn't want to date a stranger." Niall explained sadly.

"Okay, and Zayn, what happened with Emma?" She asked.

I knew she was going to say this.

"Well, um, "

How do I explain this?

"I, I, we broke up." I shrugged.

"Alright." She said moving on.

Glad I got out of that one. I thought.

If only I hadn't invited Trish over, than I wouldn't be a manwhore or murderer.

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I can't believe it. Next chapter is the halfway mark in the story.

Damn...

Again I apologize for the shortness, but I have an extreme case of writer's block for most of my stories, including this one

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**Jules**