Winter Tragedy ~Sequel to Summer...Tragedy?~

Chapter Fifteen: This Moment

Nikki's POV:

I sat in front of the TV, taking a ship of my hot chocolate. The hot liquid rushed down my throat and I closed my eyes and smiled. Hot chocolate would always make me feel better. I don't know why, but it did. The chocolate sensation and the hotness of it. It's weird, I know.

I took another sip of the chocolate sweetness and shuffled in my seat. My feet were falling asleep from having them under me for about an hour now. Liam left for a concert an hour ago, not before a lot of begging. he wanted me to come, but I said no. I had to think about stuff. As in, marriage stuff.

I honestly have no idea what to say. The facet that I'm a nineteen year old, depressed girl who was kicked out of collage because of my depression. I'm on pills and I'm not going anywhere in life. To anyone's eyes, they would most definitely think I'm just using Liam for his fame and money, even though I'm not. I love him for him.

Which brings me to the next point. My love for him. It's undying. But the feeling is not mutual. Eventually he will. But, what if he doesn't want to? He did ask to spend the rest of his life with me. That must say something right? Does he really love me? Will he not leave me?

A small smile spread across my face as realization hit me. He isn't going to leave me. He loves me. And I love him. Nothing will get in our way. It's just going to be me and him, from now on out. But the thing is, is that I'm nineteen and Liam is twenty. That is so young to get married. Surely it will end in divorce or something.

I stood up and finished my hot chocolate. It's probably just the pills but I was suddenly feeling happy. Like something could finally go my way. But, first things first, I have to see Amanda. I haven't talked to her in months and to be honest, I'm starting to forget what she looks like. I really just remember her hair, her eyes and that's about it.

I started to look around for my phone but found nothing. I think I forgot it somewhere but I've been so out of it ever since the car crash. And the second car crash didn't do any good. Two of my best friends have been in a car crash. That would bring me down. It would bring pretty much everyone down if that happened to them.

I sighed frustratingly and bit my lip. I've made it a habit of mine. But, it wasn't my fault. I just bit my lip once and then I started to bite my lip. I released my lip and brushed a piece of hair out of my hair. I sat back down, then stood up. I repeated the process for quite awhile before I finally settled on just laying down on the couch.

I closed my eyes, my thoughts drifting off somewhere else. I tried to think of a life with Liam. Married, happy, kids, but I couldn't. It was quite difficult. It was hard thinking about the future. Especially when the future is unknown. And right now it is.

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"Nikki, wake up." I heard someone coo in my sleep. I made a face and then I turned onto my side my face being pressed into the back of a couch. I furrowed my eyebrows and pulled away, being nearly blinded by the light.

"Evening beautiful." I heard Liam say and then his lips pressed against the top of my head. I turned around and saw Liam smiling down at me. I sent a slight smile to him and then I put my head down, still tired.

"Maybe you should go to bed, lovely." Liam suggested and I smiled at his nickname. he must be really happy. I'd be if I were him. I mean, I'm on the rode to getting better. I'm getting better. I'm getting better. 

I reached up and pulled Liam down into a hug. He wrapped his arms around me and I relaxed in his arms. For a second or two we stayed like that, but I figured Liam was uncomfortable so I let go, stood up and then hugged him. And we stayed like that. In each other's arms. Because nothing else mattered at this moment. It was just me and Liam, and I could ask for nothing more.