Winter Tragedy ~Sequel to Summer...Tragedy?~

Chapter Nineteen: No Matter What

Niall’s POV:

I stared blankly at the doctor. He’s got to be kidding right? There is no way that Amanda will forget me. He’s got to be kidding. He’s a doctor though, of course he’s right. My Amanda will forget me again. But, that’s not how amnesia works. If you remember something, you remember something.

“I’m just kidding.” The doctor said laughing. Before he could say anything I got up from my seat and straight up punched him. I didn’t know why exactly; I’d never hurt someone intentionally. But, this son of a bitch of a doctor made me worry about my Amanda.

“You son of a bitch! You’re a suck ass doctor if you go ahead and make fucking jokes about amnesia. This is a huge fucking deal and you go ahead and say something as ridicules as that? What the fuck kind of doctor does that? I should just go and get another fucking doctor,” I screamed in fury, but I wasn’t done, “You are a fucking cunt—no you aren’t a cunt you’re a fucking shower of cunts! Come on Amanda we are going to a different doctor who doesn’t make fucking cunt-ass jokes.”

I pulled Amanda out of that rude ass fucking cunt doctor’s office and left the whole building, Amanda’s mom following close behind. The car ride to the next nearest doctor’s office is quite silent. I was still so angry and I hope I’m not the only one.

I’m not being a jerk right? The doctor though he joked around about the sake of my Amanda. I just want the best for her. I don’t want a doctor who would make jokes about Amanda and her health. I just want to know that she’ll get her memory back.

I pulled up to the next doctor’s office and I opened the door for Amanda’s mom and then Amanda. I probably seem like a huge jerk for punching that doctor, so I want to seem like a gentleman, even though I’m probably far from that by now.

“Thank you Niall.” Amanda’s mom mumbled quietly. She probably doesn’t like me anymore. She probably doesn’t want me to see Amanda anymore. God dammit I hate that fucking doctor so much right now. I hate how he made Amanda’s mom not like me. But, it is my fault.

Amanda’s mom went up to the front counter and started explaining everything and seeing if we could get an appointment while Amanda and I waited. Suddenly she spoke up, “I would’ve hit the doctor if I were you too.” I looked at her surprised.

“Well, he was joking around about my health and if this was you and not me, I would hate that the doctor would do something like that,” Amanda shrugs, “I don’t think my mom approved though. She isn’t so into violence, but don’t worry. She’ll come around again. How’s your hand?”

I looked down at my left hand and moved it around a bit, “Yeah its fine. I don’t think I punched him that hard to be honest. But, I wouldn’t know. I was too angry to be thinking about anything else or what I was doing.” I shrugged and took Amanda’s hand in mine.

“Okay, so it’s booked today, but I made an appointment for tomorrow at twelve. I guess our Christmas Eve will have a doctor’s appointment.” Ms. Light said, sighing and I knew she was making me feel guilty and putting the blame on me. Enough said, she has.

“I’m sorry Ms. Light. I really didn’t mean to ruin your Christmas Eve.” I apologized. Ms. Light just shrugged it off and Amanda and I got up. We followed Ms. Light out of the office and into her car. I sat in the back while the two Lights took the front.

Just like going to the doctor’s office, the car ride was silent and it was extremely awkward. I just fumbled around with a thread sticking out of the seat until Ms. Light pulled up to her house. I got out of the car and went to open the door for Ms. Light but she had already gotten out. So much for being a gentlemen.

Once inside the tension just grew thicker. I think Amanda was just saying that so I don’t feel as bad. I knew that they both hated me. I have to get them to like me again. I can’t lose Amanda and I don’t want her relationship with her mom to suffer because of me.

I walked over to the Amanda’s bedroom door and knocked on the door lightly. I heard Amanda reply a choked up version of a come in and so I did. Walking in, I saw Amanda crying and I quickened my pace to sit next to her on her bed. Once I sat on her bed, Amanda wrapped her arms around me and cried into my neck.

“Amanda, love, what’s wrong. I’m so sorry about what I did. I just wanted what’s best for you. I want the best for you.” I apologized again, rubbing her back. She shook her head against my chest and continued to cry. She said something, but the words were muffled into my shirt.

Amanda pulled away and sniffled before saying, “No it is not that. It’s just, I want to remember. I really want to and like I said before, I feel like I’m disappointing everyone. I want to so bad, and I’m just being a baby about this. I should be strong, shouldn’t I? But I’m not.”

“Hey, Amanda, I told you this once and I’ll tell you again, you will never, and I mean never disappoint anyone if you don’t remember. It isn’t your fault and it never will. If you don’t remember, your mum and I will both still love you. Please stop worrying about it. I will always love you, Amanda. No matter if you remember or not.” I replied, kissing her passionately.

“Are you sure you won’t be mad if I don’t?” Amanda asked and I immediately nodded. I am one hundred percent sure I won’t be mad. I just want the best for Amanda, and if the best won’t get her her memory back, than that’s okay too. As long as she is with me.

“I can never be mad at you.” I replied. She gave me a small smile and kissed me. I smiled and kissed her back. She played with the hair on the back of my neck and shivers instantly ran over my body. I love this girl so much and I would literally do anything for her. If I lost her for good, I’d lose myself, and I’ll never let that happened, no matter what.

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Sorry for the short chapter :/

But yeah, so that’s it for Namanda. Next time you see Namanda will be in Final Tragedy.

So, next chapter you find out Nikki’s answer ;)

I hope you all liked this [short] chapter despite how bad it is…

Picture on the side --> An edit I made of Namanda <3

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**Jules**