Check Mate

Chapter twelve

too afraid to let go
while too inclined to stay
the past;

it bears a heavy weight
that will never go astray
even if i had to wake
a painful choice;
it still awaits
even as my dreams do so
a million miles away

Stephanie

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Asher's perspective

Shit

Fuck

Cursed words flew from my lips, sitting on Spring's couch with my hands clutched to my face.

I had royally screwed up. She was never going to trust me. With a promise I had broken and a trust that would be hard to fix.

I could hear a cough from my side, looking up to see Eli crossing his arms as he stood watching me. The dark room made his eyes shine bright with his wolf senses. It had been five hours since I had lost control, with Spring's eyes helplessly watching me in freight as I was going to mark her. Hearing her beg as I pinned her, a beg that wanted me to leave.

She didn't deserve me the least bit.

I was what she had thought I was..

A monster.

"Don't beat yourself up, boss. You're lucky I could sense your wolf before you did something you would of regretted." Eli spoke, trying to ease me back.

I stood up quickly with tight fists clutched to my side, "she was never suppose to see that side of me. How can I not fucking beat myself up after what just happened tonight?" I spitted out with anger, controlling my wolf.

"I could of lost her! I probably just did after watching her run out!"

That's when I felt it..

Something wet glide down on my cheek.

"Boss...are you crying?" Eli's eyes widened. My hand automatically swiped of the tears, erasing the side I hardly showed to anyone.

"Where is she?" I ignored his question. Trying to remember what he had yelled to my mate after my wolf fully took over. He shook his head with a no.

My wolf growled with not liking his answer.

"Fucking tell me." I moved closer to him as he stood his ground, knowing why I had chosen him as my beta, he was not easily intimidated. "No can't do. Look, if you want to gain back Spring's trust, give her time. Lots of time. It's not going to help if you just barge on her once again to say your sorries. She is scared of you and seeing you again will just make it worse for her and your wolf."

He was right but my wolf only had one thing on it's mind and that was our mate. I growled with frustration as my mind fought with my wolf's; eventually Eli's words of wisdom sunk in.

I punched the near wall, letting out my anger. My eyes lingered on the new added hole, knowing it only added more work for Eli.

"You're right." I whispered backing away with my eyes shut. I needed to give her time and space. She was pure... but with me I would only ruin her pureness.

I was the exact opposite.

I turned walking towards the door, "take charge over the business and the pack till I come back."

My words echoed with demand.

"Where are you going this time?" Eli asked confused behind me, knowing he was trying to read me but I had shut my mind off.

I stopped in my tracks, staring at the doorknob with my hand on it before I spoke, "To do what's for the best, to give Spring plenty of time and to take my mind off of her."

I turned the knob and walked out, with my key in hand and my mind on one place I knew would make me forget.

As Eli's eyes watched from where he stood, knowing wherever I was going, I was staying for a very long time.

"Keep her safe." I whispered, knowing he could hear my last demand.

I got into my truck, starting the ignition and drove towards the road that would lead me towards my destination.

Far from this city.

And even farther from beautiful grey eyes.

I was going to change for my Princess.

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Author's note:

The end.

I'm KIDDING!

Buttttt..

I apologize for not keeping my own promise and updating yesterday, but I seriously had some writer's block going on.
I literally rewrote this chapter about five times after not being able to sleep because of trying to come up with this chapter.
This chapter is quite short too, so I apologize on that too.
But I will make the next chapter worthwhile..that's a promise I am able to keep.
Xx Sarah