There's More: A Black and Grey Compilation (BWWM)

Confessions of the Other Mothers (Part Two)

Teaching Tammy

Tam woke up and felt completely disoriented. She barely remembered the day and she hated that. She looked for her phone and realized it was missing. She sat upright and immediately started looking for it. How was she supposed to monitor the baby if she lost freaking baby monitor?

"Shit, shit, shit!" She freaked out and then heard giggling coming from the back room. Gail and Shea had sat Tina up in her play chair and were both on the mat with her folding close and chatting. Tina was contently trying to place her socked foot in her mouth.

"Hey Princess Tam arises," Shea teased and Tam frowned a little bit she hated being called a princess. She was happy that Tina seemed completely better and happy. Tam sat on the mat too and played with Tina's other little foot and the baby cooed and looked at her mommy. She thought she was trying to play the foot mouth game too.

"Oh here's your phone. That is a nifty little app you got their much more high tech than a regular baby monitor," Gail commented and Tam nodded.

"Yeah, Teddy found it," Tam murmured. "He's really good about finding useful stuff like this or anything that helps him feel in control really."

"You know I hate to pry into personal matters but I feel you should know that Teddy doesn't believe you trust him with Christina. He was very good with her in the hospital and I've seen him with her since then, you should trust him more," Gail advised and Tam scoffed and rolled her eyes.

"Did he tell you say that?" She looked down that had been there major argument lately but it never became a full fight. Tam knew it was coming. She didn't know why she felt so protective over Tina. She didn't know why but she always felt better when it was the both of them together as a team.

"No, he didn't tell us to say anything but he did say you don't trust him ... and you're not denying it," Shea observed.

"I trust Teddy with both Tina's and my life. I'm just nervous about her in general. I would rather he be around when I with her at all times too, but he trusts me a lot more than I trust myself," Tam explained. "I'm told him this a million times but still thinks it's a trust thing. The only one I don't fully trust is myself." She shook her head. "I do feel better that I've gotten some sleep though. Thank you both so much."

"You're welcome Tam, and we were thinking of ways we can split babysitting up so you can sleep regularly," Shea mentioned and Tam was secretly grateful. Teddy and she were looking for baby sitters but each time they searched Tam was never satisfied. She was just scared to place her baby in the hands of a stranger.

"And possibly go back to work," Gail added. Tam huffed she really felt Teddy had put them both up to this. Just last night they had the discussion about her going back to work. Tam huffed out a sigh. If there is anyone she would feel comfortable taking care of her baby it was Shea and Gail.

"Yeah, I do miss work a little bit," Tam grumbled. "I have been working from home but I miss the interaction with other people. Ava has been doing all the really fun stuff I used to do."

"I know some other things you probably miss doing," Gail teased and Shea shook her head at her as warning not to go there with Tam. Tam look between the two ladies and was apparently confused.

"You were talking in your sleep Tam," Shea said dryly because she knew Tam wasn't going to believe her and she wasn't going to like this discussion.

"I think it's sweet that you dream about your husband!" Gail cooed and Tam rolled her eyes.

"I don't dream so ... I don't know what you overhead," Tam said bluntly.

"You were dreaming Tam. Maybe with us coming over a little more frequently you can get a good night's rest and then have more energy for other things," Gail hinted and Tam narrowed her eyes. How did these women think they know her life? I mean they were right but how dare they imply she wasn't getting any.

"They were just suggestions Tam no need for the death stare," Shea chuckled and the baby added to baby talk to remind them all she was still in the room. Shea picked up Tina just because she wanted to, she really hadn't seen her all that much since the hospital.

Tam's mind had drifted to Teddy. The last time he had resorted to the forehead kiss was when he was sexually frustrated and didn't see a way to release. This time was different they had privacy Tam didn't know why the sex had stopped. She knew for the first couple months after the baby was born they weren't supposed to have sex and they both really didn't think about because arrangements were being made to accommodate little Tina. Then they moved into the house and the plans for their upcoming double wedding, they had become so busy that they lost each other. Tam took a deep breath. She knew he wouldn't have committed to having the ceremony if his feelings had changed but she did miss him ... intimately. So maybe she did dream about him. She just couldn't remember it though, at least she got some kind of release in her subconscious. Tam huffed out a pretty loud sigh and scratched her head.

"So what did I say?" Tam asked out of the blue and both women were confused. While she was in her little daze they had preoccupied themselves to baby talk with Tina. "While I was sleeping? How do you know I was dreaming about Teddy?"

"You said Teddy," Gail said frankly and Tam shrugged.

"That doesn't mean it was a sexual dream," Tam countered and was a little disappointed that they could be wrong.

"You said Oh Teddy quite a few times. Just like you used to back in the day," Shea said bluntly. Now that she had been sexually active she knew that Shea was most definitely right about the wet dreams back then, that moisture wasn't urine. Even back then she kind of knew she was right she was just confused by it. Why would she subconsciously be ready for sex yet not be able to understand it in her conscious mind?

"Okay Shea I get it," Tam said dryly. "You're right Teddy and I should find some time to hang out. I'll make sure to talk to him about it. Is there anything other advice you ladies would like to give?"

"Oh honey there's tons of advice we could give but you should get these few things right first and then we'll talk again," Gail chuckled and Tam laughed too.