Hidden (Danisnotonfire and Amazingphil)

Chapter 12

**This is chapter is especially dedicated to Cory and Talia two beautiful people who left this world too soon. Cory was such and inspiration and an amazing singer and Talia told us to just keep swimming, she swam as far as she could. Ily both so much RIP**

Chapter 12

*Sophie's POV*

Oh my god. Oh my god. Was I seriously about to kiss Phil? Yeah I know we're close and everything but I didn't think my feeling for him were so strong I would basically cheat on Pj.

I winced a bit as Pj as he pulled me to the hallway by his room, as he was holding me right where I had cut myself.

"Pj you're hurting me.." I whispered in pain as his grip tightened around my wrist. He looked down at me and immediately loosened his grip.

"I'm sorry." he said looking down for a moment then straight back into my eyes, "Do you love me? Do you really or is this whole relationship just some stupid thing to you? Is that all I am just some fall back you have until you have Phil?" Pj questioned me all at once, the anger in his voice scared me, and his grip on both my wrists caused me to wince in so much pain I felt like crying. This is not the Pj I love, no. The colour of his happy eyes has all since faded to a dull, lifeless unhappy one, his gorgeous smile is gone, turned into a frown that looks like it will never go away.

His breathing has gone short and every time he breathes in he sounds mad. I know almost kissing Phil was a mistake but the anger I see in Pj now, actually scares me. No it terrifies me. I want to cry for him to stop looking at me like I've crushed his heart and for him to stop his tight grip from getting tighter, I know it was an almost kiss but this side of Pj is a side I do not want to see again.

"Answer me now." he glares at me, with a look in his eye of sadness, pain and hurt. I want to hug him and tell him I do love him, which is true, but the way he us acting has left me speechless, I couldn't muster a single word or sound.

"Fine." he stares at me sending me a look of hate, pain and love all mixed together. He releases my wrists and breathe out holding them seeing red marks of his hands.

"Peej," I manage to get out before he walks away from me completely.

"What," he questions quietly.

"I'm sorry." I say beginning to tear up a bit. Pj is an important part of my life, he's the only person I've ever dated that hasn't already tried to fuck me or has hit me or hurt me. "P-Please don't leave me." I say beginning to cry a bit.

I don't like to cry. It makes me feel so weak, I don't want to feel weak ever, especially in front of Pj. A look of sadness and regret washes over his features as he sees me start to sob quietly, he rushes over to me and wraps his arms around my small body.

"Shh, Shh, baby I'm sorry ok? I'm here now. I won't ever leave you ok. Shh." Pj comforts me as I sob into his chest. "Why are you crying baby? I love you ok?" he says taking one hand away from our embrace and lifting my chin up.

"You h-hurt me." I stutter through little sobs. His face drains a little more at the thought of hurting me.

"Shit Sophie, I'm sorry! Where did I hurt you?" he asks, I look down at my still red wrists, he stares at the top of my red arms and gently leads me into his bedroom.

He sits me down on the bed sitting opposite of me, taking my arms in his hands. He begins to turn them over to see the rest of the marks and my eyes widen, I try to pull my arms away before he can see but it's to late. A small gasp leaves his lips. It's been done. He's seen my cuts.

He knows.

*Pj's POV*

Oh my god. I think as I see the red marks I've left on her skin. I've left marks on her. I've actually hurt her.

I look at her red arms as an other small sob leaves her lips, I look up quickly and examine her face, her eyes are slightly red and puffy, her lip is slightly quivering and a few tear marks are on her beautiful face, the thought that I did this makes me disgusted with myself, I've never wanted to see a girl cry, let alone be the cause of her tears.

I slowly begin to turn her wrists around to see all the other damage I've caused, as I do she begins to squirm and try to pull her arms away from my grasp, I don't let her. I turn them over and a small gasp leaves my lips as I see cuts all over her wrist. My grip loosens in shock and she takes the opportunity to pull her wrists away.

"Sophie?" I ask looking up at her. I see more tears well up in her eyes as she shakes her head and runs out of my room.

"Why?" I whisper quietly to myself. Why would such a beautiful, funny, kind, strong girl do that to herself?

I get up to follow her and ask her that very question, I walk into the living room and see her standing in front of Phil. He has her wrists in her hands looking at the red marks I'd left. They don't see me and I back away a bit into the hallway to see what they say.

"Sophie, what is this?" Phil questions holding her red wrist.

"Pj was just mad..." she says looking down at the ground.

"Sophie he's not allowed to do that to you." he says sadly. He then flips her hand over so her cuts are on display, wanting to see what he says I inch closer to them.

"Sophie you promised me no more." he says sadly tracing his thumb over her cuts.

"I'm sorry Phil. I tried I really did bit for some reason your fans and Dan's fans and Pj's and Chris' fans send me a shit load of hate for just knowing you, I get called horrible fucking things and sometimes I can't take it ok?" she breathes out.

"You could've talked with me about it again," Phil says sadly. How is it Phil knows all about her cuts? Why not me? Does Dan know? Questions run through my mind.

"I just want it to stop." Sophie sobs as Phil quickly pulls her down on to his lap hugging her tightly, rubbing her back, rocking her back and forth, placing a small kiss on her forehead.

That should not be Phil. No. That right there should be me. I should be the one that Sophie runs to when she's sad. Not Phil, and I intend to make myself Sophie's first choice. Always.

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