Hidden (Danisnotonfire and Amazingphil)

Chapter 18

Chapter 18

*Pj's POV*

It's been a week since Phil's little outburst, but with that small outburst he's been extremely shitty with everyone.

When I come round their flat, Phil glares and huffs and puffs at me, Sophie is really awkward around me and Dan, well Dan is trying to be normal. There's so much tension between all of us it's sort of sad. But I don't regret saying anything I said at all.

But with saying what I said about Phil spending so much time with Sophie has made Phil a cocky little ass. Every time he is near Sophie, so maybe sitting on the couch next to her and I see them he will put his hands up in surrender and start saying stuff like "oh you've caught me, I'm obviously trying to seduce her. Look how close I'm sitting oh no."

Honestly this week Phil is pissing me off.

*Phil's POV*

I hate this week. I hate that I can't do absolutely anything with Sophie, so I've decided to not do anything with her. Just ignore her I guess, we wouldn't of worked out right? Pj and Dan sure as hell wouldn't let us be together, so why even try if it's not possible.

So now I've been ignoring her, I don't want to hurt her, so I dodge her kisses, her hands and her hugs. It kills me. I want to kiss her and hug her, but I know I can't and I know we aren't going to work out.

Every time I dodge her I go to my room instantly, but I always turn back to see her for a split second and I can see the hurt in her face and that is what hurts the most.

I really do want to be with her, in fact I wish I didn't just dodge her, kiss and I wish I wasn't walking off to my room. I know the time I do kiss her someone will catch us and we will be screwed. Ugh why is it so hard.

Stupidly I look'd back again, her eyes looked broken, I hate that I'm doing this to her I hate it.

*Sophie's POV*

Were alone finally, I can try again today. Phil has been avoiding me and I don't know what I've done wrong, he's avoiding me and every time I try to make contact he jut stalks of to his room.

He was just on the couch watching Adventure Time and I tried to place a small kiss on his cheek and of course he got off the couch and went to his room.

What did I do, did I say something, do something, did I not do something? I don't even know anymore. I just know I've done something and he hates me and now I hate myself.

***

I stumble slowly into my bathroom one small tear rushing down my face.

Going into my cabinet I pick up an old perfume I never use and get my blade from underneath it.

Sitting down on the floor cross legged I bring the blade to my wrist.

'he hates you' my mind whispers as I cut a line into my skin.

'he despises you' another line is placed

'he hates the way you look'

'he doesn't want to be around you'

'he wishes he never got involved with you'

'he wishes he never kissed you'

'he hates everything about you'

'your stomach, your smile, your eyes, everything.'

'he hates y o u'

At this point I'm sobbing, my arm is throbbing and I have about nine new cuts, which are bleeding heavily. My hands are shaking and my vision is blurred from my tears, everything is quiet except the small sobs escaping my lips. My hands begun to shake more and I drop my blade to the floor.