Love, Light and Blood (Owari No Seraph)

Chapter 6: Painfully

  My eyes opened slowly and my sight was blurry. I blinked a couple of times and warm tears slid down my cheeks. My gaze shifted around the room I was in. "Where am I?" I croaked. I swallowed, realizing that my throat was dry. I was in a large hall and I was laying on a red carpet.

  "I guess you’re not dead after all." I heard a voice say. My body instinctively shot up and turned to the source. It was a vampire! I stood up and backed away slowly. The female vampire was sitting on a throne at the top of a wide set of stairs, draped with the same carpet I was standing on.

  Her long pink hair was partly tied up into two pigtails with identical black hairpieces in the shape of little bats while the rest of it was let loose. She wore a black dress with cut off sleeves that covered her hands along with knee length boots. To be honest, she looked younger than me. She stared intently at me with her red eyes. "What are you so afraid of?" She asked. Her voice echoed off the walls.

 
  "Y-you." I barely managed to say. I took another step back and the vampire threw her head back, laughing.

  "Oh really? Why would you be afraid when you’re the same as me?"

  "What?" My heart stopped.

  "Don’t you understand?" She adjusted herself in her seat. "You’re a vampire, now."

  --4 years later--

  The pain was growing and I was having a harder and harder time to act like it was nothing. I knew I was going to have to drink blood someday but I just want to keep my sanity. I wanted to keep whatever remaining humanity I had left in my body! Even if it was slowly deteriorating.

  I quickly keeled over and started breathing heavily. Sweat dripped down my neck and I held my hand to my chest. "Damn.." I muttered. I reached to the pouch on my waist and pulled it off and opened it. I took out a glass tube, filled with a red liquid. I took off the cap and quickly gulped down the red liquid.

  "You can't live on my blood alone."

  A familiar voice rang through my mind and I opened my eyes. My breathing slowed down and as did my heart rate. When did it come to this? I bit my lip as my thoughts flashed back to when I had realized the grim truth of what I had now become.

  "N-no! That's not true!" I fell to my knees and the vampire pulled out a glass cup.

  "You can deny it all you want but it will always be true." She titled her head to the side, looked at me and smiled.

  "Wasn't I dead? I-I saw my sister! A-and Mika!"

  "What are you talking about? You never died."

  "No! You should have just left me for dead!" I pulled my hands into fists.

  "I would have, believe me. But I heard your heartbeat even though how badly you were wounded. So I gave you my blood and turned you into a vampire."

  "I-I don't want to be like this!" I yelled.

  "Of course you're not going to be used to this but it doesn't matter. You can't stay like the way you are now forever anyways. You'll eventually need to drink human blood."

  "No! I'd rather die!"

  "Fine. But starvation for vampires is worse than Hell on Earth." She toyed with the cup and then slit her wrist.

  My eyes inadvertently looked up and I watched as her blood slowly filled the cup. I felt the strangest urge to drink it all. I gulped, imagining myself being pleasured by...blood.

  "I can see the lust in your eyes. You want this badly don't you? Be a good girl and have some. Have as much as you want."

  Her tempting words made me inch forward and I did, I wanted to, so badly to have even the smallest sip. But I held back. I clenched my jaw and turned away. My heart raced and my muscles tightened. I was suffering. It was painful.

  The vampire continued to taunt me with the blood in the cup. She shook the cup and a drop of blood fell the floor. As it descended, time seemed to just slow down. I stood up and walked up to the vampire, my mouth opened but I realized what I was doing. I slapped the cup out of her hand and furrowed my brow. I swallowed and stared her in the eyes.

  "Is that so?" She asked, simply. "Well, as you wish."

  She stood up from her chair, blood still dripping from the wound she gave to herself. Fresh... Delicious... Blood!

  I extended my arm out and grabbed the vampire's arm. I held it in front of my mouth and sank my fangs into the wound. I slowly came to realize what I had just done and there was no going back from there. I hated every second of this, but I didn't want to stop.

  "There, there Siri." The vampire said in a loving voice while caressing my head gently. "You're mine now."

  I sniffled silently as I simply let go of who I was.

  "No..." I said to myself. I sighed and looked up at the dark ceiling of my room. For the past 4 years, I had become an underling for Krul Tepes, the third progenitor.

  In those 4 years, I had become such a different person than I was before. I was haunted by the death of my family. I always felt that I was so useless back then, that's why, so now I have to get stronger. No matter what it takes, I didn't want to stand there and cower with fear. But I didn't want it to happen like this. As a vampire, I have to fight myself. I have to keep myself from becoming a complete monster but the pain.. it's so unbearable. I just don't want to drink the blood of a human, and become a monster!

  Yet, I want to. So badly, I want to escape the pain.

  I sighed and escaped my brooding thoughts. I felt so lonely. I missed being around the smiling faces and laughing with them. I missed being able to talk about what we wanted to do if we ever got to leave the city. I miss....Mika. I placed a hand on my chest and memories flooded in.

  My chest felt empty, like there was a hole where my heart should be. I felt like I should have been crying over my friends but, I wasn't. Not in the slightest. My eyes were dry. I guess, that when I became a vampire, I had already lost my humanity.

If I was human, I would have been sobbing in a corner. But, I'm not. Strangely, a laugh escaped my throat. Coming from me, it sounded so foreign. I had never laughed in such a long time. I threw my head back and continued this. The laughing died down and I sighed. I wiped tears from my eyes and stood up.

  "I need some air." I muttered to myself and left my room.