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Chapter 9 : Take What's Left...

Victoria

June 21st , 2016

Thinking-- knowing I was going to die put me in a lot of depression since then months have passed and Torian is still in my heart. I have no idea how long it will take until the virus reaches my whole body. I've been counting the days and marking them off, also I've been staying with Tristan and his brother Miles.

Miles was this twenty year old kid, with a daughter and he's an author. He only sold one book, I'm sure it won't take long his book is awesome.

It was about a boy that was bullied, he took us through his life and how he dealt with the torture. Later on, the boy killed himself. It was intense but was a good book overall.

I asked him was he bullied, he said no. I didn't expect that someone that didn't go through that wouldn't actually go in depth.

"You want Pizza?" Miles asked brushing past me.

I nod to him. "What kind?"

He smirks. "Pepperoni. You know I don't eat that other shit."

I laugh and get up to go grab a paper plate to eat upon.

"What smells so good?" Tristin asked entering the kitchen.

"Pizza. That I'm not sharing with you. " Miles assured.

"See. This is how you start a debate." Tristan pointed out.

I rolled my eyes, not wanting to hear the same debate I hear everyday.

I got up from my seat bringing my pizza with me, I started to go up to my room but I didn't want to be alone tonight. For some odd reason I felt like Torian was here in Boston, it was a unexplainable feeling.

"You okay curly top?" Tristan asked and turned on the Television.

"Nahh. I'm good. I just need a little more time getting over this. " I confessed.

He was the only one besides Torian and I that knew about my situation.

He nods. "I just don't understand why you left Victoria. He was willing to give up every thing for you. He was willing to make you guys whole as one, your problem is his problem. I know he'll be heartbroken but don't you think it'll still go both ways? Why did you make this decision for him?"

I look into his eyes finding what I've never found in Torian.

Hope.

Not for "us" but for me.

Hope that I could fight this virus and then give me the strength to go back to him. For Tristan it was just him and his brother, I have one priority.

Torian.

"You okay curly top?" Tristin asked yet again.

I wanted to answer those questions about Torian, but it was apart of me that didn't know the answers. I knew why I did those things but I'm just having a hard time excepting it. It was all for him, he didn't need me like this; it was too much.

I shook my head no. "I think I'll just go up to my room and lay down."

He nods, looking at me sincerely.

I got up bringing my pizza with me, once I entered my room I sat the pizza down on the side table and looked around. I quickly closed the door shutting my eyes closed. That was really nice of Tristan And Miles, letting a dying girl stay with them. I looked around to all the family pictures of Tristan side by side by his brother and niece. Just then I felt my eyes water, the familiar burning sensation graced my nose quickly making my nose flare. I wanted a family like this, it was a shame I won't be here long to do so. A unexpected sob came from my sore throat and I dropped to the floor brawling my eyes out. I let everything hit me all at once. I felt like I needed this, I've been trying to be neutral through this whole thing; but really it was tearing me down. I hated the fact I decided to make decisions for him, I hated that I left my loving home, I hated that I ran away from every single thing I couldn't handle. That's all I knew how to to.