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Victoria

I was walking bag strapped around my shoulder, hands in my jacket pockets. Mind clouded from the events that just happened.

How could he be in love with me? He knew I love Torian.

I shook my head at the thought of me being with Tristan. It would be nice but Torian was all I lived for. I've been walking for awhile now I could say about thirty minutes. Tristan asked me if I wanted a ride I declined because I felt a little weird, I'll be better on my own sorting out my thoughts.

I thought about everything that happened over the months and couldn't catch even one glimpse of Tristan giving me hints. How could I miss it? It just didn't make sense. I was a pretty smart girl I could have figured it out.

I went through the woods where I met Tristan and couldn't help but miss him a little bit he was a sweet man in a difficult world. Maybe he hid how he felt because he knew my heart only belonged to one person.

Stepping over the twigs and leaves that laid on the bike trail I couldn't help but think about what to expect when I ring the doorbell to Torian's home.

I knew I hurt him by leaving with no explanation and I couldn't blame him for it either.

Arriving on his block my steps slowed and I became hesitant, maybe because I was in oblivion. Maybe because I was scared of rejection.
In front of his house the familiar porch came into vision, the porch lights came on indicating someone was on the porch. I felt my heart drop a little when I seen a body move.

Walking up the porch steps, I reached over and attempted to ring the door bell but the door flew open.

Torian's face came into my view, I became lost in his beauty even though his dark sandy brown hair was messy and he was only in basketball shorts.

"Victoria..." he breathed.

I closed my eyes at his voice saying my name, he just didn't know what he does to me. He makes my heart clench; the good way.

He gave me so many butterflies I couldn't catch them all. He made my day better, calmer, and more bright.

I smiled. "Mr. Richardson."

He smirked and stepped aside to let me in, I released a breath I didn't really realize I was holding.

Once I stepped into his home I felt at home again, I felt safe.

I dropped my bag by the stairs and went over to the couch as he sat across from me. He sat there and stared at me for awhile until he decided to speak.

"Why?" he asked.

I blinked my eyes a couple of times to get rid of the tears that was forming up. I couldn't take this feeling that overcame my body. I was gonna tell him and break his heart in a million pieces, I dreaded on doing just that.

"I... I--" I trailed off.

The words couldn't leave my mouth, it was right at the tip of my tongue but it didn't want to escape.

He looked at me and shook his head. "Why did you leave me?"

I closed my eyes and a tear left my eye that I didn't know that was there. I was so overwhelmed with the feelings I was feeling it was unnoticeable.

"Torian... I'm so sorry. I couldn't watch you watch me--" I trailed off once again.

He sighed in frustration. "Watch you what Victoria?"

I half smiled. "Die..."

He blinked his eyes a couple of times. "You are dying..." he ran a hand over his face roughly. "You could've told me... What happen to the cure? The hospital?"

I shook my head. "The cure doesn't work on me..."

He shook his head and got up and sat next to me. "I don't care. You are dying but I don't care. I want you more than I've ever wanted anything in this whole world. You are here now."

Tears streamed down my eyes but he wiped them away. His lips touched mine and everything stopped. The world stopped. I stopped.

He picked me up in a fast motion as we still kissed and took me upstairs to his room and laid me down on his bed. In-between his kisses he cupped my breasts and kissed me all over my neck. I stopped him midway as he went lower.

"I never--" I started.

He came up face to face to me putting his index finger on my lips. "It's okay."

I smiled as he kissed me again.

He took the one thing from me that night I saved for so long, the best part of me that nobody owned. It was beautiful just like I planned on it being.

My virginity.

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Birds sung in the morning, the warm sun graced my face as I woke. Torian laid next to me under the covers, he slept so peacefully as he chest rose up and down in a slow motion. I smiled to myself as I caressed his face.

I jumped up and got in the shower changing into a white tank top and light gray joggers. I went downstairs to make me some toast and turn on the Television.

The news was on talking about the discovery to the cure inside the hospital I was in. My eyes turned into slits as I looked on at the woman with blonde hair and green eyes talking to a nurse at the hospital; nurse Demona.

I rolled my eyes and flicked the channel. A cartoon I liked was on, I heard the toaster pop and I went over to retrieve my toast and put butter and jelly on it. Just how I liked.

I heard steps descend the stairs and Torian stood behind me and hugged me.

"Good morning Victoria..."

I smiled and cuddled up under him as he slowly moved away.

"So. I was thinking we could go to the beach. It's beautiful out." he spoke calmly.

I nod as I took a bite off my toast. He stared at me while doing so.

"What?" I asked.

He smiled and shook his head. "You're just beautiful that's all."

I felt myself blush and swallowed my remains.  My heart fluttered a little and I felt myself getting nervous.

"I'm going to get in the shower. Be dressed when I come downstairs." he ordered.

I nod and finnish my toast getting lost in my thoughts. I hated how he gave me butterflies and loved it at the same time. He was my drug and I couldn't get enough.

I went upstairs and got dressed. I put on a gray cami and blue jean shorts.

I went downstairs to find Torian dressed in a white polo and tan shorts.

"Ready to go?" He asked picking up his keys from the table by the door.

I nod and we headed out the door to his car.

The ride was peaceful as soft music played from the radio. I laid my head on the seat and watched out the window as we passed cars on the road. I felt a relief of calmness. I knew Torian would give in. It's not not like I expected him to. He went through so much after I left and I Feel terrible about it.

Arriving at the beach, crowds of people surround the sand playing volleyball and mingling amoung friends. I smiled to myself missing that life of carefree.

With nothing to worry about. I missed it.

"Let's go over here..." Torian pointed out near the shore.

I nod as I follow him blanket in hand. He spreader out the blanket not to close yo the water and took a seat. I took one next to him as we stared at the water making light waves.

"Can I tell you something. And When I tell you this I don't want you to freak out." He said to me not meeting my eyes.

I looked at him and nodded. "Go ahead."

"I think I caught the virus."

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